#onto the bad side... isn't it fucked up how numb i am to my dad's comments

[missjessefantastico]

who's surprised? nobody!

#starting out with the good side: this is not affecting me nearly as much as it used to #in other time of my life i would be bawling my eyes out by now #onto the bad side... isn't it fucked up how numb i am to my dad's comments #like... i knew he would find something to criticize from the very beginning #i didn't know exactly what but i knew he would find something #so today it was as if i already had heard it before #which again is good bc i'm not even distraught over it #but i think it's sad how unaware he is of the fact that every time he opens his mouth he gets closer and closer to mean nothing to me #he thinks i hate him but the truth is that i haven't hated him for years because everyday my mental image of him is less the one of a fathe #and more the one of a white noise machine #which is so sad for him because i'm legitimately an amazing person i'm proud of who i have become and of who i keep becoming #and he's just... that annoying dude i sometimes have to talk to #all because he says he's too old to change his ways i mean how sad is it that he doesn't even believe in himself? #al this to say... #my dad: become an engineer | me: okay | my dad: not like that D:< #he doesn't like the school i picked you guys! what else is new? #i learned web development basics with no teachers i became fluent in english by watching cartoons #i got the highest score out of every applicant even tho i hadnt touched a math problem in years #but according to him i'm going to be a failure because of the school i picked! #just because i'm doing better when dealing with him it doesn't mean i'm not annoyed lol #anyway back to my life... #txtsincorbata