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#okay. anyway. finished six of crows. i'm normal about them.
miabrown007 · 2 months
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going crazy about kaz brekker hours
#HE'S JUST *screams into a pillow*#Inej wants him to be better she NEEDS him to be better and shed his armour and be emotionall vulnerable and honest to her#and every time he tries it life delivers a right hook into his solar plexus and knocks him to hell and back#and time and time again he is made to come to the incorrect conclusion that being vulnerable and soft and caring about anyone ever#is a mistake and a weakness that he isn't allowed that he doesn't deserve#and his only way of getting what he wants and keeping the people he loves safe is if he becomes something that can't love them#like life just continues to punish him for having any kind of feelings#and he can only love them if he kills the part of himself that loves them. like COME ON MAN#i'm literally unwell about this kid (KID HE'S FUCKING 17 LET HIM LIVE)#someone sedate me (well actually don't i need to start reading CK tonight)#Kaz I Am Ruin And Ruination Brekker#and it's so tragic because he has come such a long way during SoC and when Inej asks him to be hers you know he can't do it. he would like#to but he's unable of it like his walls are still built up so high.#and it's fair of her to ask because she needs that and keeping her always at arms length is not viable of Kaz but also that's all he can#currently give her. that's his all and it's not enough and my heart is breaking for them ohmygod#they make me think so much of felonies love square I'LL EAT GLASS#okay. anyway. finished six of crows. i'm normal about them.#mia's reading
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yourtouchismidas · 11 months
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What about if Matty and RG got called into school for something, like one of the girls got in trouble for something, nothing major, maybe just typical high school stuff like smoking in the toilets ahaha. I can’t imagine Matty being any good at discipline, he loves his girls too much bless him
so i think most of the girls are well behaved at school, and keep most of their experimenting and stuff outside of it. there is one exception though. stevie matilda. stevie came out a little rule breaker. she was always crying til she was red in the face if she didnt get her way. she would draw on the walls and pinch her sisters when they were playing quietly and run off giggling.
you and matty pretty much try everything. the naughty step. early bedtimes. no pudding. but stevie sits on the naughty step and entertains herself by singing. she goes to bed early without a fuss, talking sweetly to matty as her lifts the cover for her, as if its a normal bedtime and not a punishment.
"she's happy at least," you say, as you and matty groan into your before-bed-tea at the kitchen table, after another day of trying to get her to do what you say.
"maybe it's just a phase," matty says, "a terrible seven? is that a thing?"
"no matty. but even if it was, stevie has a terrible six too. and five. and..."
"okay i got it," he says, placing a hand over yours and tapping. you look at him. his laughter lines. his crows feet. his greying hair. the warm light reflecting in his glasses.
"you're too soft on her," you tell him.
"i'm not."
"you are. she listens better to me. hell, she listens better to george."
"okay maybe i am. i just cant help it. i mean. have you seen her? the smile? the dimples? she's fucking adorable."
she keeps growing and you send her off to secondary hoping that the teachers are more equipped to dealing with naughty kids. your children have all gone to regular school their whole lives, despite matty earning enough to send them to private (the exception being valley once she hit eleven and needed more advanced classes).
"if public school was good enough for me. it's good enough for my girls," he said.
"stevie will probably get expelled if we sent her to private school anyway. apple doesnt fall far," you agreed.
so off stevie went to secondary and amazingly, you didnt hear anything. no phone calls. the occasional detention but nothing major. something odd happened with the twins early in their school journey. close as anything at home, they separated at school, made new friends, took different classes, became themselves, before returning to their shared bedroom at night to gossip until they fell asleep, sometimes in the same bed.
then the call came.
"hi is that stevie healy's mum?"
you'd just finished lunch and all the girls were at school . you were expecting a call from gigi at uni today and thought that's what this was. you beckon matty over from where he is stuffing crisps in his mouth and whisper "stevie." his eyes go wide. you hold the phone up to both your ears.
"unfortunately stevie has been sent to the headmistress today..."
they explain what has happened. stevie was caught on top of the gym hall roof with her friends. no one knows how she got up there and when asked to come down she refused, telling the teacher she didnt want to show other kids how to get up there, and he shouldn't want that either, or tomorrow everyone would be doing it. apparently there had been damages to school property. no one was hurt. you're asked to come and collect her. suspended for the rest of the day.
"stevie healy!" you yell at her when you see her, sitting outside the headmistresses office, head in her phone.
"hey mum," she says. like its regular pick up time.
"what do you think you were doing?" matty says, trying to put on a stern voice and failing. stevie smirks a little.
"i dunno. all the older kids take up all of the field and grounds to eat lunch. there was nowhere to go. this school should really provide more places for year sevens to eat if they want to stop this kind of behaviour from happening again."
"unbelievable," you say.
"when we get home we're going to have a massive talk about respect," matty says. the headmistress is behind him now. watching. he sounds stern enough for her. not for stevie.
"didn't you set fire to uncle george's trousers when you were my age?"
"thats... well... that's not relevant right now. come on. we're going home. we'll pay for the damages," matty assures the headmistress.
when you're leaving, matty hears a little voice.
"dad?"
it's lexie, staring at you all crossing the courtyard, frowning.
"what's happened? you okay stevie?"
"your sister has been in trouble."
"god sake steve," lexie says. "got all scared then. thought there was a problem."
"there is a problem. your sister," you say. while matty kisses lexie on the side of the head, making her blush and assures her not to worry.
"see you at home," he tells her.
at home you both sit stevie down at the table and tell her off. you tell her she needs to sort her act out. that authority is hard sometimes yes, but you have to get by and stop doing things that could harm others. matty is actually stern. and stevie looks shocked. she looks in her lap and almost cries. but then locks eyes with him again. willing to take the yelling, knowing she earned it, and also that she can take it.
there is a silence afterwards. stevie sits and the two of you lean against the counter.
"okay, shall we go to a movie or something then?" matty says.
"matthew!" you say.
he shrugs, "what? she's off school. may as well."
you sigh. "too fucking soft," you mutter, but you grab your bag anyway. may as well.
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