#ok enough rambling for now. tldr I feel like I've lost close personal relationships recently but can't figure out how to get more or fix em

[mntcoronet]

is it too much to ask... to just have someone I can be close and Soft™️ with... I just want love & someone to love, honestly would that be so difficult, universe?

#maggles ramblings #got hit with that loneliness again folks 😎 #making friends is tough cos i try to limit myself to the same enthusiasm they show and always worry about going overboard? #n if they don't reply i just don't send anything more cos I worry i was too much or too odd or something? #& man I just want a close deep thing again with someone. #h listening to this one mcr song or two just reminds me of something along those lines from last year. i miss it #guess I'm still not over that huh #i mean. tis tough when someone you thought you were close with just cuts you off and never tells you why #hhhhhhmmmmm i should probably have yknow. gotten over that or something by now. but hey brain gets attached to things #oh but yea with the making friends thing. i also try to restrain myself cos I feel like i might be too rambly or weird a lot? #but it's not like i know if I've got any Reason for being like that i just. am? #and i don't know why?? #and i also worry too much when I'm awaiting a reply cos if I'm waiting for someone to message back and I'm real excited about the convo #then i will be constantly like!! checking to see when they reply!! and if they don't reply quickly i start unconsciously overthinking #like. i just start feeling Bad when they take a while. like oh no they hated my message for some reason ahh but then i see them typing and #that's a rush of relief right there #and i have trouble holding conversations cos idk how enthusiastic or laid back to be cos i haven't known the person long enough and aaa!! #ok enough rambling for now. tldr I feel like I've lost close personal relationships recently but can't figure out how to get more or fix em