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autisticbokutoenthusiast · 7 months

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person who is sooooo normal about ray talks about the end of episode 10, what it confirms, what it introduces, and what it may even promise:

"can you please forgive me?"

starting off with this line.... there is a specific brand of betrayal and hurt reserved for the people who feel like the only ones in the world that can make you feel loved. we've seen ray get angry and even lash out at the other characters before but we haven't seen him breakdown the way he did in the sandray apartment fight. i think i took ray saying that he finally was starting to understand his feelings more in episode 9 too lightly, because it seems he meant more then just "i think i like you too" kind of thing, i wouldn't be surprised if ray realized the love he felt as well, and not just romantic love but the "you've seen so much of the ugliness in me but still stayed" kind of love and, if im gonna be bold, acceptance.

"you can be angry or hate me all you want"

lines like this tell me two things, the first being the guilt ray feels over the way he treats people and the second being how much pain he thinks he deserves for it. though i will say this time it feels different then in episode 4 where ray asks sand to call him a burden, because before he wanted sand to hurt him back (a bit of retaliation a bit of self-harm even) but this time he is asking for sand's understanding and forgiveness. he still thinks he deserves it, but now its more then just asking for someone to hurt you in order to reconcile (we will get to the fact sand isn't really there don't worry) there is a sort of emotional growth is what im trying to say.

"i know now that you want nothing from me"

this is also such a huge line for me. we know ray views himself as worthless, he would rationalize why anyone would want him (this is why he was so hurt about sand accepting money from his dad but that's already been meta'd to death so i won't get into that), so him not only thinking but verbalizing that sand is someone who is kind to him without expecting anything in return is huge for ray's ability to see himself as more than a burden or his father's money. in fact, i'd say him admitting this here means he is already beginning to gain a sense of self-worth.

"though i've been nothing but an asshole to you, you are always there for me"

this is the part where we really see ray break. im not good at reading other people's emotions so im not gonna comment on what emotions the actor is trying to portray (tho he is portraying some big ones goddamn), from a text stand point, im interpereting this as pain. I talked before a bit about guilt but i'd say at this moment the realization that someone can care for him so deeply that the parts of himself he's sure are not only unlovable but hurtful won't drive them away, causes him a lot of pain. as someone who is bad feeling cared for or appreciated as a person and sometimes acts like a dick about it, i too would break apart at this moment.

"please understand me"

now this is the line that inspired this post in the first place. he struggles with the connections he has with others but you can see how lonely this man is. like he has been told he is a burden, he interperets his life events and the way other people treat him as proof he is fundamentally unlovable and bad luck for anyone he gets close to, and he is a self-fulfilling prophecy about it.

when he asks sand to understand him he's asking sand to look deeper then his self-sabotoging and attachment issues and see the love and care he has that he struggles to understand and feel and express. he is filled with so much pain how could it not start to infect everyone around him, but from what we see of him, he probably never wanted to hurt other people in this way to begin with.

i think the reason this line specifically broke my heart is that, so much of his behavior at times can be interpreted as a subconscious cry for help, help he won't except but help he needs anyway. i knew any arc involving ray addressing his addiction would destroy me because there is the pain experiencing the things i mentioned above, the pain in thinking you're helpless to them, and then the pain in doing what it takes to try to move forward from them, like this shit is hard. the clarity ray is able to adress imaginary sand with is so incredible even though its in his head, especially given how stubborn he'd been about admitting any issues in the first place.

"being with me requires some patience"

all that i said above and more... i don't think ray will get over that feeling of being a burden any time soon if he ever does because it becomes so ingrained in your worldview and the way you interpret other people's behavior. i like the way this line is phrased (i know its a translation but still) because it alludes to him feeling that he is capable of being loved, it'll be hard but not impossible.

"but if you don't want to put up with me anymore, that's alright. i get you"

remember how i just said i think he now believes he's lovable... well actually i still mean it. he's been constantly told and shown how his behaviour and mentality are hard to deal with, like he thinks his existence is so burdensome it killed his own mother BUT he now knows sand is different. he won't blame sand for not wanting to deal with him, he's always been aware of his shortcomings but can now honestly address the effect his actions have on others, and at the same time he knows that its possible to care for him.

this is why i think sand is his motivation for going to rehab, he's shown ray what is possible for him in ways no one else before sand has.

"but please know this"

there is something so special about the impact sand has had on ray that i think goes beyond their relationship. sand made ray see the value in having a future, in being loved, in being happy. in episode 8 ray tells sand that he's finally happy when they spend time together, and it may seem like he's repeating it here but again this sand is imaginary. he's not saying this to get sand to answer his texts or hang out with him. he's imagining his reason for wanting to recover from addiction. like the weight this scene carries at least triples for me everytime i remember sand isn't really there. this was such a beautiful choice to make imo like ray saying these things to sand would probably be good for their relationship but it wouldn't have the same impact on ray's character arc.

my conclusion is once again don't know why i rambled on besides, ray as character was manufactured in a lab to drive me insane. like i've triggered my mood disorder twice over the course of watching this show but i wouldn't take it back for even a second. i love ray, i love what we've seen of his mentality and backstory, i love that we're seeing him making the decision to address his addiction, i go numb with the thought of where his arc will go next, but i especially love seeing everyone come together to scream about this character that means so much to me (not at all subtle reference to the fact i've read hurt and grieve but don't suffer alone by @jgyapologism what three? times now) anyway hope we all continue to scream about him this week. 🫡🫡

#only friends the series #only friends meta #sandray #oh ray #ray only friends #ray pakorn #only friend analysis #ofts

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nade2308 · 1 year

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I said I'd never let you go, and I never did

I said I'd never let you fall and I always meant it

If you didn't have this chance then I never did

You'll always find me right there, again

@malewifebillcage @thethistlegirl

#ray ferrier #rachel ferrier #war of the worlds #tom cruise #dakota fanning #my gifs #war of the worlds gifs #my edit #this scene breaks my heart #she just went and put his arms around her #trying to comfort him #and he is just there #probably trying not to hate himself for what he did #because it was the pure survival instinct #oh Ray #he needs to be taken care of #I need to hold him for at least a year

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bitacrytic · 7 months

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THE...

AUDACITY!!!!!

#only friends the series #OH RAY #also this is probably my favorite scene i n this episode #toxic ray is just *chef's kiss*

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invisiblegarters · 7 months

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So Ray *does* in fact carry a lighter he just chooses to pretend he doesn't.

Yeah. Checks out.

#oh ray #only friends #only friends the series #also something about how sand lighting ray's cigarette in the first ep #was this whole production #while ray just sort of casually lights mew's like nbd

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knowledgevariabledarcy · 6 months

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#oh right #oh real estate #oh really?#chouriki sentai ohranger #oh ray #noriyoshi ohrai #ohrwurm #Youtube

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akecrowart · 6 months

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Drew Laudna because she's my favourite <3

#critical role #laudna #bells hells #critical role fanart #marisha ray #i def didn't draw her as creepy as i'd like but oh well

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jimmysea · 8 months

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Don't listen to what Ton said. If there's something you want to know, you ask me.

ONLY FRIENDS THE SERIES (2023) Episode 5

#only friends #only friends the series #sandray #sand x ray #firstkhao #first kanaphan #khaotung thanawat #marigif #this reminds met of patpran scene in bad buddy ep 4 #oh god it begins

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vebokki · 10 months

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why don't we leave then?

#fanart of one of my fav scenes. sqq being like oh hes speechless lol this is hard to see #hes the worst i love him #and binghe shooting babygirl rays #tag dwellers - rec me a bingqiu song #luo binghe #svsss #lbh #svsss fanart #人渣反派自救系统 #bingqiu #shen qingqiu #mxtx #scum villains self saving system #omg this is so bad <3 but yolo

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tubbytarchia · 2 months

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For the ranchers a bit more shleep i just really like charakters comfy and nice:Dc /nf

Eepies. Jimmy woke up to really sore wings but its okay because Tango

#(I cannot imagine avians sleeping on their backs lest they have special mattresses or something but hnng. For the domestic fluff...)#team rancher #rancher duo #solidaritek #I imagine Tango is not nearly as much of a ray of sunshine in the mornings as Jimmy is. Jimmy finds it endearing though 100%#I also imagine Tango moves the hell around in his sleep and tangles them both up with his tail #He's gonna try to apologize a thousand times for “making you sleep on your back” but Jimmy won't let him #ALSO what does /nf mean lol. Every other day I see another new tone indicator that I cant figure out the meaning of #please feel free to use brackets to circumvent my stupidity. I do not know the hip things... I am but a boomer noobie #trafficshipping #trafficblr #I have so many other rancher asks in my inbox that could fall under this #Rancher cuddles and smol Tango and this and that hhrr but I will... I will get to them... in time....#never enough rancher content #also laying on someone when they laugh so their chest bounces up and down etc. Oh it makes me weak. Not that I know what its like lol #but it feels cute...#tubby art

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chloesimaginationthings · 8 months

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Yasuho’ JoJolion charm collection!

#myart #chloesimagination #doodles #jojo bizarre adventure #jjba fanart #jojolion #JoJo part 8 #yasuho hirose #gappy higashikata #rai mamezuku #tsurugi higashikata #joshu higashikata #daiya higashikata #kei nijimura #tooru jojo #what if everyone was oh so small #big day for my fellow jojolion enjoyers 💗

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autisticbokutoenthusiast · 3 months

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not to sound like a ray apologist but thinking about his behaviour after remembering he is in love with his best friend and everyone knows it and also knows he'll never be good enough for it to be reciprocated, hes a shit ton of poor decisions in a trenchcoat and no one cares, he has the glossiest poutiest lips that go chronically underappreciated and unkissed, he lives only because nothing has killed him yet, he's given up on receiving his fathers love to the point that even feeling his anger and disappointment is just a stale experience and a chore, he sleeps one room away from where he found his moms dead body- having chosen to make a home for himself in the same place she caged her misery, and he is 22 years old. all things considered id personally be so much worse.