#not 100% bc jesus christ that was so stressful but. we're getting there.

[willowser]

Wait, you deactivated?!! I thought u got suspended?☠️☠️💀 , I was really like damnnnnnnnnn😭😭😭😭😭😭. WELCOME back tho💖💖💖💖💖💖💯💯💫💫💫💫💥💥

yeah, i actually privated ! and — i don't know how to explain why to yall without 1) oversharing, 2) being super long-winded, and 3) sounding like a crybaby LOL but the long-short of it is: i was getting a decent amount of negative feedback the last few weeks and a final comment kind of launched me into this weird episode where i was sort of forced to face this hurt that i had been avoiding for a few years, and then i felt really uncomfortable and embarrassed and nakey, so i didn't want anyone to look at me LOL but i'm on the mend now, so thank you ! 🩷✨️

#you know how you go through a traumatic event and have to just keep going #and it's not until a while later when you're suddenly reminded of it and you realize JUST how painful it was ?? #that's what happened LOL #and it sounds like i'm saying: i got some harsh feedback and got my feelings hurt #which — sure who wouldn't that happen to — but it actually just triggered memories of a really low point in my life and i had to — #— deal with that very suddenly #and was of course very uncomfortable during that time #i couldn’t figure out exactly what was triggering at first and i was just sick and panicked and couldnt sleep LOL #but in talking it out and realizing the source of the issue — i'm feeling a bit better ! #not 100% bc jesus christ that was so stressful but. we're getting there. #here i am oversharing anyway whoops #anyway if it were not for my friends i would be in the pit of despair :) #✿ ask willow