#nobody gonna read this but whoever does gets to torment him and that's great

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why do you hurt?

you swallow pain & fold around it

you have always hurt. you hold it carefully, and twisted in such a way that other people don't have to see it. you don't choke on it. you don't drown. you just have it, the way some people have freckles, this is a thing that lives in your bones. you fold instead of fighting because you know how to make yourself small, tuck away the places where they have clawed at, swallow the bruises so you seem clean. nobody needs to see it. you will live through this on your own. you know what you need, and relief isn't it. this doesn't mean you cannot reach out - it means it is not in your nature to do so. you should. hiding does not mean you won't be seen.

Personally victimized by: @cxnscience (hair is insured for $10k and does commercials in Japan, so flawless) Victimizing: @wishingxuponxstars , @droppingdonkeys , @princessmaid , @princessquinnella , @hoopsheartthrob​ , @gravitasfatum , @sisipck , @feathercapped​ , @hxzelwallflower , @dreamsofalife , @all-fleshed-out , @gctta-pace​ , @ofteaandmagic , @le-boid , @dunce-buckets , @daringtosing , @minkroe​ , @opportunistic-chicanery​ and oh my god please steal this and embrace anarchy. Because I forget things. And today is a migrainey day.

#doc headcanons #why you do him like this tho #he's an old man it's four hundred years of pain he's gotta live with #and i mean an entire mountain of dead people he left behind but #we just gonna hide that like it's in the litter box #pretend it ain't there until we gotta clean out the clumps #what a horrible description but you know what someone's gonna find that mountain of statue dwarfs and ask him questions one day #i live for that day of panic and anxiety #nobody gonna read this but whoever does gets to torment him and that's great #listen i'm just gonna keep going here cause we're about to get some antibiotics in me for the sinus infection #you have no idea how CAN YOU FEEL A BRAND NEW DAAAAY i'm gonna be in five seconds #enjoy this really i enjoyed writing this