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lunarsilkscreen · 8 months

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"Crime of hurting feelings"

I can't find the American legal definitions just yet, but I'm writing this out.

Consider a situation you're in that you think somebody has the intent to break into your house. Not a vague "somebody homeless might get me" I mean somebody has demonstrated I'll will towards you and you expect it to create a situation of "kill or be killed".

You spend your waking moments checking and double checking your locks, you don't go outside for fear of running into that person. You generally don't feel safe, but there's nowhere else you can go.

Everybody can imagine that situation, it isn't comfortable to sleep with a gun under your pillow. So if you're spending all that time just trying to feel safe, that's an attack on your mental and emotional state.

That was my life for the entire year I had dealing with a former roommate, and afterward when I asked for the locks to be changed and could not. Or, the dryer that was always broken that a landlord used as cover to deliver a court summons instead of fixing the dryer. (Verizon has text message logs.)

I spent a long time in fear of this.

Now consider that you were already receiving therapy to help control anxiety (PTSD) and depression while all this is happening, and now you can't even walk the distance to the only hospital that'll accept your medical insurance, because your car was towed while the court decided it was illegal to go pick up your vehicle and other property from the place you were renting.

AND ON TOP OF THAT, the police offers you a document that says you waive your right to sue for property destroyed by cause of police negligence.

I'm but one person. I no longer feel safe in any community. I don't trust the legal system, the courts, or the police, after giving them enough time to sort their issues out and identify the issue.

I'm paying the price of negligence from every person that has ever had power or a position of authority over me.

That's my bias.

That's the crime of "hurt feelings". And every conservative knows this pain very well, and yet for some reason, confuses it with some small inconvenience.

You know what it's like spending every waking hour worried more about your own survival, and being unable to do anything to protect yourself or your own interests.

I can't even do any job that I have the skills for because my tools were destroyed. For every trade that I'm skilled in. All of my work and portfolio was taken away from me and destroyed. All of my military records. I'm in pain because my arthritis is uncontrolled, I'm anxious because they threw away my medication for that, and on top of that, they forced me through puberty again by taking away my HRT drugs.

I literally can do nothing except fear that all of my work will be taken away from me again. That I will never be allowed to live as my true self, and that I'll be imprisoned because people in positions of power will not admit to their own negligence.

Who wants to live in a world where that is normal?

You don't, I don't.

I don't want to be here. And after six months of very cruel and unusual punishment. I don't want to be in here.

But if I kill myself, then that can be used as evidence of "mental instability" and proof positive that "it was only a matter of time."

And if I protest in another violent way, even in a minorly noisy way. That'll be proof positive of "domestic terrorism" and how trans people are really trying to destroy the "natural order".

I have no voice. I have no identity. And the powers that be will not acknowledge that there is a problem that needs to be corrected.

Please. I'm begging you, give me the death penalty. Then you can carry out your desires for me to be dead, and I won't have to be the reason more trans people are denied their own identity.

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