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#my husbans said he doesnt feel loved by me anymore and I've been trying so hard to manage household baby and everything else but its not
xxlelaxx
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Anxiety makes enjoying good things so hard
#ignore me
#my life has been too good lately and I'm starring to go insane from everything working
#i hate myself so much
#I've been trying ao be more social and be a good mom and be someone that my daughter can look up to and my husband can love
#but it always ends up with me hating myself so fucking much
#I've been eating too many sweets which already is setting a bad example qhen it comes to a healthy diet and my media consumption has been
#worse lately and my anxiety is now making me unabke to sleep and I've stopped going on daily walks cause the pain is back
#it was so nice not having it around for a while and it is makibg everything so much harder
#the sleep makes me more irritable and i feel like all i do is fail my baby
#my husbans said he doesnt feel loved by me anymore and I've been trying so hard to manage household baby and everything else but its not
#enough i always feel like I'm never enough
#I've been a horrible friend like always so i guess that is a constant thing in my life
#as if that isnt the worst when my mental health gets worse i start getting flashbacks to remind me of everything that went wrong with me
#and that just fuels my anxiety around my daughter living through everything i did as a child and i just cant do this
#i just wish i could sleeo again
#i think all of this is sleep deprivation but i don't know how to do everything without losing sleep or something
#i just wanna rest and sleep for more then four hours without veing woken up
#god what i would give for eight hours of continuous sleep
#but my husbands shifts are so shit that i cant do that to him... also now that I'm at home he's the only one working and I'm terrified of
#loosing him so i dont want him to be at work without sleeping well cause it could actually kill him
#worst of all I'm just too stupid to ask for help or bother anyone with my stupid problems
#and every time I'm away from her she just screams and i just can't take her screams anyo
#anymore
#i just want to pee and ahit and eat in peace
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