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Closure 3

After three days of being restricted to Bones and Spock as company, Jamie was happy to see the rest of her bridge crew visit. She got updates from Scotty and Chekov, earnest thanks from Sulu, heartfelt apologies and empathy from Carol, and quiet comfort from Uhura, who offered to get her anything she might need from the apartment. Jamie took her up on that offer and gave directions for her favorite sweats, a certain picture she treasured, and her wedding ring to be brought to her.

“That’s better,” she said with a sigh as it slid back on her finger. “I’m so glad I didn’t have it with me when I went into the core. It would have had to be destroyed.”

She stared at the tiny embedded diamonds twinkling in the silver band she wasn’t ready to let go of. Chris had put it on her finger just ten months ago and she couldn’t stand the thought of putting it away so soon.

“It really is beautiful, captain,” Uhura had murmured and shared a sad look with Spock.

“Bones, you remember this?” She asked her friend as he checked her vitals for the twenty millionth time. Jamie was holding the picture from her wedding: a shot of her and Chris kissing surrounded by the bridge crew who had been told to ham it up. Some of them followed directions better than others.

Scotty was making a kissy face and giving a thumbs up, Chekov was pretending to gag, Uhura was mock fainting on Spock who stood stiff as a board with a martyred expression on his face. Yeoman Rand was blowing a kiss and winking at Cupcake who looked like he wanted to wink back. Bones looked exasperated as usual, and seemed to be squinting extra hard at Chris, even as he mimed hypoing the bride. Jamie’d thought it hysterical at first, but knowing what she knew now, the look kind of unsettled her.

“All too well,” Bones drawled, glancing at the photo. “You’re all a bunch of children. I can’t believe you got that one framed.”

“I like personality, Bones. We had plenty of nice posed shots, but this one always makes me happy, seeing all the goofy. Chris liked it too, shockingly.”

“Gee, I wonder why?” He teased, nodding to the enthusiastic couple in the center.

Jamie turned a tad pink. Bones had delighted in teasing the two of them about their relationship, but she knew it was all in fun and he was relieved she’d found a stable partner.

A lot of people, on the other hand, had thought it was gross and wrong for a respected Admiral to be involved with a woman two decades younger and looked at Jamie askance like she was a impudent hussy who’d slept her way to being captain.

As a matter of fact, she’d switched advisors early in her second year at the Academy as soon as she realized he was as interested in her so to avoid the appearance of impropriety.

It had all been worth it, she reflected as the hypo kicked in, but how she’d wished they’d had longer together.

“Hey Jam-up,” came a friendly female voice Jamie recognized as her sister-in-law.

“Ally!!” She exclaimed warmly. “Good to see you! I’m sorry I missed out on the service.”

“Nothing to be sorry for, hon. You were half dead.”

Allison Pike took Jamie’s hand of greeting with a look of concern. The captain imagined she wasn’t a pretty sight right now, having lost weight and being covered with healing bruises. She and Allison could have been aunt and niece by their ages, but Ally had never treated her as anything less than what she was–her big brother’s wife, albeit an annoying one sometimes, hence the nicknames.

“You doing alright, girl?” She asked quietly. “You barely had time to breathe before things went sideways. Last time I talked to Chris he was really upset. Said he’d had to take the Enterprise back and he felt like he’d ripped your heart out. Please tell me you two made up before he passed.”

Jamie hastened to reassure her, very thankful that she could.

“Yes, we came to a truce before the attack happened. Shaky, but it was there. I’m so glad I did now.”

She shuddered at how awful she would have felt if she’d let her wounded pride have its way that last night. Frustrated as she was that saving Spock was cause for such action, she was glad he’d been honest with her.

Allison sat down in the chair beside her with a sigh and squeezed her hand, Familiar grey eyes heavy with sadness.

“I have something for you,” she said quietly, pulling out a triangular shaped object and handing it to Jamie. She took the folded flag and clutched it in her arms, that ever present sorrow welling up again.

“It was a lovely service, actually” Ally said, when they had both cleared their throats. “Even Komack wasn’t an ass for once. Barnett was the most genuine of all the speakers and he was obviously devastated. He’s going to come visit you one of these days, but he’s swamped cleaning up the mess Marcus left. I still can’t believe that scumbag!!”

She pounded her leg with her first angrily.

“Chris trusted him! He believed in him! And the man was a bald-faced liar and monster!”

“He was terrifying when he showed his true colors,” Jamie admitted, still picturing the admiral ordering the destruction of the Enterprise. “I hope they dishonorably discharge him even though he’s dead.”

“All the talk I’ve heard points that way, Jamie.” Ally confirmed. “But it won’t bring my brother back.” Her eyes filled with tears and she and Jamie grieved together.

“He always said he was amazed you’d fallen for him when you could have had any number of hot young studs without spinal damage and crankiness.” She sniffled out after several silent minutes.

Jamie laughed through her tears, passing Ally the box of tissues that she’d had by her side.

“And I wondered why he’d ever want to be with the crazy, rule-breaking fiend that plagued his life and made his job ten times harder.” She admitted, still remembering the day they’d finally admitted everything.

******** She’d been called into his office out of the blue for no reason she could think of and had dragged herself in with great apprehension which only increased when she saw the serious look on his face.

“What did I do now, Sir?” She asked, wondering if she was in for another chew out and what had brought it on. She’d been on her best behavior recently and had not even attended the Orion/Deltan hosted “party” that had been shut down by security.

“Amazingly, nothing,” he’d said getting right to the point. “This time it’s on me. Kirk, I strongly recommend you switch academic advisors.”

“What??!” She’d exclaimed, feeling hurt and stunned. “You’ve been listening to gossip again, haven’t you? You know it’s nonsense! You’ve pushed me to be my absolute best and didn’t give me anything I didn’t earn. I don’t understand, sir.”

She was totally lost and Pike wasn’t looking at her straight on, which was very fishy. At last after some agitated squirming, he leaned forward and spoke again.

“You’re right, I normally don’t. However, it’s not nonsense this time. I’ve….Jamie…I need to put a professional distance in place in order to keep some….less professional… feelings from ruining our relationship and getting us both in trouble.”

She gaped in shock at the admission and he continued rapidly.

“I won’t mention it again because you probably find it horrifying, and understandably so, but It’s simply the cold hard truth. Like I said, it’s not your problem, it’s mine.”

“I understand, Sir, but what if I don’t find it horrifying?” She’d ventured, panicked at the thought of never seeing him. Contrary to common belief, she did NOT see him as a surrogate father.

Pike stared at her like he was looking through her soul, but she held his gaze steadily, feeling her face warm under the scrutiny.

“In that case,” he’d said slowly, one side of his mouth curving up a little, “we’ll have another conversation on our own time. In the meantime, go contact Commander Jensen about being your new advisor. She’s a very good instructor and eager to test your genius brain.”

Jamie nodded. “Yes, Sir,” she said immediately, almost wilting with relief. *******

“That’s what made you perfect for each other,” Allison reflected, jolting Jamie out of her thoughts. “You brought out my brother’s much stifled softer side, and he brought out the real you that loves with all she has.” Shaking her head, Ally stood up and pulled herself back together. “But, I’m getting sappy now and your guard dog doctor is giving me the death glare.”

Jamie looked and sure enough, Bones was standing in the doorway, arms crossed and scowling.

“Oh, Bones. It’s okay. I’m not in pain.”

“That’s not the point, Jamie,” Bones said firmly. “You’re exhausted. When Winona comes, I’m gonna have to warn her in advance not to talk yer leg off.”

“Hmm. Protective. I like that. Is he available, by any chance?” Allison said, winking at the doctor.

“If you like them southern and grumpy, go for it.” Jamie grinned wickedly at the flush her words caused on Bones’s face. She liked getting a rise out of her best friend and he knew it.

“Dammit, Woman!!! I’m a doctor, not a lovesick schoolboy!!”

Both women laughed.

“You rest up and get better now, Jamboree,” Alison said with a final squeeze of Jamie’s shoulder.

“Bye, Ally,” Jamie sighed, affecting a glare at the nickname she secretly thought was hilarious.

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