#meanwhile my mother thinks I'm already done ahahaha

[tardis--dreams]

We have 5 lecturers in english linguistics. One won't be there next semester, one is cutting back on work because of illness, one of them i don't even know, one of them I'm too ashamed to ask (again) and the only one left just told me he couldn't supervise my ba thesis

#meanwhile my mother thinks I'm already done ahahaha #i want to die lmao #i don't know if I'll ever finish this degree #I'm starting to get rushes of anxiety/existential despair randomly throughout the days #idk what to do anymore #why does everything feel so embarrassing to me #I'm super ashamed of the fact I haven't gotten my ba done yet #it should be so easy #Everybody can do it #I'm seemingly the only one who can't get their shit together #honestly #i don't need anyone to advise me if they're too busy #i just need someone to grade my paper so i can get it over with #what do i do now #it's my fault after all #i could have gotten it done 2 years ago but I haven't done anything #I'll start crying hahaha #shut up amy #university ramblings