#meant to be gen but if you interpret it as vashwood that's fine by me go ahead

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And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

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Lyrics from Fix You by Coldplay

A year ago today, my brother passed away. It doesn't feel like it's been that long. Everything after has been a blur because I constantly feel like this entire reality has to be wrong. Truly reality couldn't exist without him? Right?

He was obsessed with Trigun when he passed. Obsessed. When they announced Stampede soon after he passed, I wanted to scream. He had spent so long wishing people knew what he was talking about cuz by this point, Trigun was pretty old. He wanted more people to appreciate it with and seeing this renewed interest in it is bittersweet.

The amount of effort he put into trying to have the closest he could get to Vash's gun irl, he did. He custom commissioned parts to put on the closest equivalent gun irl just to have it. He was even setting up a cosplay. He also had a fake one for the costume, of course, but this guy had, like, 5 different versions of Vash's glasses just cuz none of them felt truly 'right'. He was so particular about it, lol. Hell, he even had Wolfwood's glasses. He adored everything Trigun.

It took a long time before I could even will myself to watch it again, but I wanted my wife to see the original before seeing all of Stampede. Getting to this scene again after going through the grief I have gives it so much more meaning. I felt it deep in my soul.

After all, why does good food still taste good when they're no longer there to share it with you? It feels wrong. And the thought of you ever enjoying anything again after such a loss is extremely hard too. Everything feels like it's not even real or worth being happy about.

In the few days leading up to his death, I was drawing Vash for him as a bit of encouragement. That is, until I realized he couldn't see properly anymore and that there was actually no point in making it. I still haven't finished it to this day. However, it felt appropriate to draw Vash for this. Later on, when I have more time, maybe I can draw something more in his honor. For now, I hope maybe he can see this wherever he is.

I miss you.

#my art #trigun #vash the stampede #trigun fanart #meant to be gen but if you interpret it as vashwood that's fine by me go ahead #vash fanart #what else do I even tag this as? #beware spoilers for the original? I dunno nvfjdnvjf