#maybe i should start wearing shortsleeves and they'll be like 'oh shit she's fucked up i'll go easy on her'

[scarletcomet]

i found out that my dad has cancer today and im on the floor crying about my hw

#yall ever get the scariest text ever right before you board your plane? #and then you're crying on the plane and then your nose starts bleeding a lot right before takeoff #anyway im failing most of my classes #3 weeks without seeing my therapist and last time i saw her she told me she was 'very worried about me' #because i was (am?) self harming again a lot #i literally texted her every hour i was free and it took her like a week to respond wtf #im just gonna submit what i have of this assignment worth 10% of my grade (less than half the assignment) #my mental health is so bad rn and i don't know what to do #because i have so much work and other things to do but i can't because of my shitty mental health #i wish professors would give you A's or at least excuse assignments and exams you are unable to do due to mental illness #maybe i should start wearing shortsleeves and they'll be like 'oh shit she's fucked up i'll go easy on her' #but it's not like anyone cares anyway #how am i supposed to function and do everything when im always on the verge of a mental breakdown #and how are you supposed to escape depression (and anxiety) when things keep getting worse and worse as a result? #maybe there is no escape.......