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There’s a neatly placed piece of paper resting in the graveyard.
Ciel
My letter to you was not something I could easily do. Drafting letter after letter, each one ended up scrapped hidden in my room. Nothing would sound right, no matter how much I tried. Even now I feel that this doesn’t sound right, but I don’t believe it ever will. There are no words to ever do this justice. Still, they must be said, regardless of what I think of its quality.
Your death still haunts me to this day, innocent blood spilt on the ground you loved dearly, mixed with those of the many lost to the terrible grudge I held. The War is something I couldn’t let go of, nothing could bring me to forget all the mistakes I’ve done. You, among all the angels, worshiped me with your dying breath. With promises of reward and high praise, you fought for me with all that you could, armed with a voice too pure for violence. There was no doubt in your mind that I was pure, that all of the promised love from my divine heart was genuine. You were convinced.
I was not the blessed creator you believed me to be.
All those years ago, I was a monster. Motivated by vanity and selfish desires, my existence was dedicated to winning a pointless war. I was blind with greed, enraged with anything relating to the Devil, and acted on impulse. Only now, so long after these vile acts by my hand, do I realize my fault. Your death was no quick action by your comrade, but a terrible sin carried out from my words.
It wasn’t that long before your death did I hear about your relationship with Lost. Gossip traveled fast among the angels, all quietly chatting behind your back, eventually reaching my ear. My trusted subordinate, my divine creation, developing love for a demon? I didn’t take the news well. By my command, I sent two armed angels after you that night. I didn’t think think twice on it.
My life has known no rest since those days, all of the mistakes I’ve made piling on me like heavy stones. This is something I’ll carry until my dying days, but to let you rest blindly without ever knowing is something I’d rather not think of. No apology could ever fix what has been done, or anything beyond it. I killed you Ciel, nothing could ever forgive that fact.
The only thing I can do to repent for these sins, or come as close as I can, is to create a world you’ve always longed for. Angels and Demons live in peace now, surrounded by infinite colors, beautiful gardens of flowers, and the careful gaze of Kcalb and I. An apple orchard rests near the small village, endless acres of lush forest cover the world, its citizens know nothing of pain. Our world is a symbol of love, having learned the lesson of what violence can do. Another pointless war will never happen on this soil.
It pains me that those from the war could never see such a bright future, living in the peace they longed for.
I wish you could see it all.
Etihw
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