#literally i've been pushing myself to write and just have had horrible writer's block- until it hit me over the head countlessly this morn

[blizzardfluffykpop]

New Fic coming vv soon!

If you are looking for a motorcycle/carshow Hyungwon fic- you have came to the right place.

I am not kidding to you guys when I say I wrote a Hyungwon fic from 3pm this evening to 3am almost 4am today. Although I did take a collective of a four break. I am being absolutely honest when I say it is completely self-indulgent. I'll give you some foreground rn. I always go to a car show with my dad in the winter/spring part of the year. It's huge, well sometimes he'll start talking to someone and brain has always imagined what'd be like to be with a s/o. And I always told myself I'd write a fic- and I've been saying that since I was kid. And finally motorcycle Hyungwon has reached levels of brain rot that are unimaginable so I can write them down. If you are reading this Kebbi- you know how bad it is. I am not joking. So, I have one last read over tomorrow with a clear mind and I'll be ready to post it. (I'll prolly cue it for 10:00 Monday Morning est tbh!)

I just wanted to let you know that it has not let me rest. I literally incorporated so many parts/aspects of it that I could, it's insane. Although, I tried not to make it pertain to me and tried to make it like the average person's favorite cars. So, I didn't include any of my favorite cars (I'm not kidding when I say I've been going to this car show since I was in a stroller) (If you are wondering two of my favorites are the Galaxie 500 and the 65' fast back mustangs). So this is vv reader friendly just absolutely self-indulgent if that makes any sense!

And I know some may not be as knowledgeable in cars, so I really tried to make it simple! I will include a foreword. So, like certain things are explained! If any other terms need to be explained, please send me an ask or a message. (Because some things I don't think need an explanation- may need one!)

Lastly, if I'm not careful my brain will make me continue to write this until I'm no longer on brain rot- but on brain dead.

#new fic soon! #idk i felt like an update would be nice #i absolutely rambled on about it #i'm just thankful i was able to pull myself away to read and eat ngl- #i got to listen to some new songs too which was nice not relevant but i got to say it somewhere- #literally i've been pushing myself to write and just have had horrible writer's block- until it hit me over the head countlessly this morn #ing- it's a writer's possession- i'm telling you- #anyways look forward to monday! #because there is no way I'll get up early enough to have this posted for tomorrow- esp considering it's 4 am... #h.one puts me through horrible fits of brain rot- last time i wrote about him i stayed up all night ofc it was partly cause it was due the #next day here- but also because he doesn't let me rest until i finish writing about him 😭 #i haven't written these many words in such a long time 😭 #kate rambles #rambles #fic update #and if you made it this far you get to know it's 5.5k+ :) my brain is insane #insane in the membrane- what do we do we swim~ ha ha hahaha swim #sorry i lost it there for a good second #anyways good night have a good day- i'll see you all later-

[notoriousjae]

Are you ever going to finish 72 Rules of Cat Grant? Pretty pretty please?????

The answer is a firm absolutely probably. A 'someday'

Funnily enough, I'm horrible about checking my tumblr messages and I'm even more horrible about answering them in a timely manner, but I do get this question at least once a month. Which...let's be real, is absolutely humbling. I'm touched.

I'll be honest with you, because I think a lot of fic writers aren't honest when they get these questions: I love them. A lot. I still know the entire story and still know exactly the path I want them to take--I know exactly what was going to happen...and honestly, I hit a few hard-to-write roadblocks and it just stemmed me from continuing. I reached a few scenes that gutted me in writing and made it difficult for me to continue and instead of pressing on, I let it fall to the wayside. It haunts me. I took a writer's easy way out--instead of working through the emotions I knew I had charted ahead of myself, I stopped the story in a way I have so little capability to stop real life. I knew bad things were coming--that bad things were going to happen--and I had an agency with that story I so rarely have. I could stop myself from going through these feelings along with everyone else reading the story. I didn't want to keep writing the storyline I was, because the middle was hard to write, even if I felt like it was important.

Juvenile? Oh, yeah, definitely. I should have just written it--that story was so important to me. It's still important to me, especially knowing what was to come for them. But...I hesitated, and now time's passed. So know that each day I think about that story like an old lover, faded memories of should have beens in the background, and I feel so horrible for everyone who was reading it that just got dropped in the middle. Supercat is still very, very dear to my heart...

But I'll be honest: because of that I wanted them to stay happy, and the part where I left the fic seemed like the greatest moment to leave them, before life ultimately got in the way. I've wished I could do that for myself thousands of times in the smallest and biggest of ways and maybe it's still a mental roadblock for me, tackling that fic. Tackling that relationship. And, yes, tackling the very painful second half of the fic that was to come.

I've mentally moved on a bit. I'd love to say 'oh of course I'll finish it' and I do mean that it's every intention of mine to finish it, someday, but it's not likely going to happen very soon. My focus has shifted--my priorities have moved.

I can't tell you how humbled I am that it had such an impact on you that you're asking me about it, now. That so many people have asked about it, or thanked me for it. It's still surprising to me that anyone has ever read a single thing I've written, let alone it's affected them so deeply, so I'm genuinely sorry that I left such a loose end on the piece.

I'd like to finish it, someday, when I can push through the writer's block I caused for myself. Maybe if I keep writing obscure wlw for literally every television show, game, and movie I play/watch I'll push past it :)

Thank you again, anon, and I hope someday I'll be able to answer this question with 'Yes! It's finished!' but until then, I appreciate you.

#I appreciate you so much #sometimes it's difficult to tell the stories we want to tell #maybe sometime I'll find the courage to push through it anyways #altho ain't anyone gonna be happy with the next chapter if I do lmfao