#like ohhhh look at meeeeee wanting to be friends w somebun sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly that it's kinda making me look stupid

[angeltism]

platonic pining feels so damn weird

#➳ the fool speaks #like ohhhh look at meeeeee wanting to be friends w somebun sooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo badly that it's kinda making me look stupid #i've never rlly felt this way . like any pining i've experienced . was romantic . but this #i think it's worse because i have the mindset (of which i am trying to get rid of) that romantic love > platonic love and therefore it's #like . ohh . look at uu . being all EMBARRASSING . over what . wanting somebun to be uur friend . over wanting to be close with someone #in a way that DOESN'T include mashing uur faces together to make out passionately ??????? lmao what the fuck #AND ISN'T FRIENDSHIP EASIER TO . MAKE HAPPEN IDK . THAN ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIPS ?????? i don't think i'm supposed to be thinking abt it THIS #much like . isn't it sooo easy to make friends. isn't it . aha . but here i am barely able to hold a convo but ig i'm just Like That eueueu #this is so WEIRD n uu can't rlly force such a strong platonic connection like . that isn't how that works that isn't how any relationship #works but like . it's like . EUHFHUIDHUFJBHSHDH ????????????????? i am SUFFERING oh my GOD what the HELL #it's so . like a crush . but it isn't . so my hyperro brain is CONFUSED and my lonely ass is STARVING for any kind of closeness this is so #WEIRD TO BE DEALING WITHHHHHHHH #god and how long have i been feeling like this #on and off for a few months #that might be longer than most crushes i've had too ? wow . what the ufck is this what is happening i am so confused i feel so WEIRD #unholy screeching ensues