#like i get it nicola is gorgeous but pen's not meant to be a knockout in the series

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sometimes it's super sad going into the polin tag and seeing all the 'Pen is gonna be THE debutante next season' or 'Pen is gonna be the Diamond of S3' or 'Pen about to get ALLLLL the attention' and like

penelope was supposed to be for the wallflowers. the quiet girls. the ones who aren't the center of attention. penelope was never meant to be the heart of the party or the big draw or the one everyone drooled over. penelope was meant to be the character representing all the peeps who stood off to the side and, in many cases, preferred it that way.

give me Penelope going through all these lessons to be more 'appealing' and all the sparkly dresses and going 'actually? i kind of hate this'. give me Penelope dancing the night away with stranger after stranger and cringing about it the whole time. give me Penelope who just wants to go back to her hobbies and her friends and her comfy corner and is tired of pretending. give me Penelope who goes through the tedious introductions and the 'what's your name? number of siblings? favorite color? great. . .' first dates of it all and hating it. give me a Penelope who empathizes like hell with Eloise because she understands now how stressful it is to always be looked at and watched. give me a Penelope who has extra appreciation for Colin for looking to understand her when she was 'invisible' in ways no one else tried to. give me Penelope who gets a taste of being The Star and spits it right out

you don't have to be the sparkling gem of a party to be worth love and care. some of us don't want the Diamond moment. we deserve our flowers, too.

#polin #penelope featherington #bridgerton season 3 #bridgerton #bridgerton s3 #'oh but dolly pen's gonna dance w/ all those new guys and everyone's gonna look at her when she walks down the stairs' #'she'll have the Daphne moment where everyone stares at her and she'll put on the performance and *sparkle*' #what about this woman makes you think that is ANYTHING but a recipe for anxiety? #i would rather die #'dolly it's the fantasy of desire' #maybe her fantasy isn't to be desired by 75 different people on a surface level who don't know her and don't really care to #maybe her fantasy is to be desired by one specific person who recognizes her for all she is (spoiler: it is) #like i get it nicola is gorgeous but pen's not meant to be a knockout in the series