#like I've mentioned my cool genderqueer friend he's on the same age range as me but I am managing to interact

[bibiana112]

I have no idea how to phrase it but being on the older end out of the students in this class and seeing a lot of the ones that just left highschool struggling with very similar stuff than I did (because no one in this course is cishet and neurotypical) and then seeing them come to me for support with all that stuff just because I'm outspoken about my experiences and somehow signaled that I'm safe enough of a person to come to all in the third week of class is so much I don't know how I got here but I'm so glad I did

#like I've mentioned my cool genderqueer friend he's on the same age range as me but I am managing to interact #with like a decent portion of the class? which is awesome! it feels like art school all over again I actually understand people #and it naturally has a lot of freshmen #and today like idk probably because of how bad I had it yesterday that today just left such a big impact on me all of a sudden #it's important to me that I can be someone like that probably because it's how I remember being before trauma and stuff #but also I mean just logically speaking I know one issue I certainly don't have is with confidence and self esteem #so it's important to me that I can support friends who do still struggle with that self doubt #and something about that just coming across to others is getting to me #like I just make myself clear that it's a choice to be friends and listen and that I wouldn't hang out with anyone out of guilt or pity #and it actually makes people feel seen #like I don't think I've mentioned yet but I had at least three interactions that reflected this today so yeah #fellow autistic nb nerd asking for snuggly friend hugs so naturally I was talking to someone else #neurodivergent trans girl saying thank you out of the blue alongside her goodbyes when parting ways #guy with ocd I hadn't spoken to yet but that had a bad fucking time cause of the class incel being glad I reached out to him #after he had to walk out of class today #like idk #fuck man #I said I was trying to not infantilize or adopt anyone but still had the instinct to try and act all older sibling like #like almost joking and the girl genuinely said I was doing a good job at that though #Void fala aí