#just kill everyone I'm so fucking done

[official-saul-goodman]

The loki show makes me so fucking bad like just stop it. I'm so tired of marvel. Why aren't more people tired of marvel. Why are there still so many fans of that shitshow.

#I'm so over it #just kill him #just kill everyone I'm so fucking done

[layla-carstairs]

I knew this was going to happen. I knew it and it still doesn't hurt any less. i knew this scene was coming

#cc count your fucking days #you will never see heaven im telling you rn #also the whole point of tatiana being poetic #& the fact she kill Barbara and Christopher; Gideon's first child & Gabriel's second #oh she is so sick and twisted for that #and the fact nobody else is there... with Barbara they were all there but who's going to tell everyone in idris #who's gonna tell gabriel and cecily their son is dead oh my God #saw someone on twitter say Thomas and Christopher should've been parabatai & that's making it worse I fear #christopher lightwood #:( #thomas lightwood #also you know what I'm not done #the fact Thomas wasn't there. he was with Alastair when kit died & he had no idea #he wasn't there to help just like how he couldn't help babs #im never going to recover from this #chain of thorns spoilers #cot spoilers #chot spoilers #chain of thorns #bella reads cot

[saturnsorbits]

Okay, so I know we all hate him, but Mahito is a legitimately brilliant villain...

#He's what happens when the trope of 'Villain just wanting to watch the world burn' is done right. #He's the embodiment of 'Fuck around and find out'. #Does he do morally incomprehensible things? Yes. Is that what makes him such a good bad guy? Also yes. #There's no arguing either... #90% of the fan base can't stand him and if that isn't proof of him being brilliantly written as a villain idk what is. #I think what I like the most about it is that there's no attempt to humanise or moralise him - at all. #He's bad. #Full stop. #And instead of making this reduce his character to one dimension; he's jam packed full of personality instead. #He's fun and carefree and silly - trying to figure out what else he can fuck up in the world. #He still has motivations and wants... Fuck; he even learns fear when he makes the mistake of touching Sakuna. #(This fear is also then his ultimate downfall as we realise it's his most defining trait...) #Also he's super fucking fun to watch in fights; lets be honest. #And his technique is cool as fuck. #Is this me coming out to say I'm kind of down for a bit of Mahito? #- Everyone look away - #Yes. Yes it is. #Is he a horrific; gross little gremlin man that deserves the worst and is probably responsible for killing your fave? #Yes. #Do I want to squish him into a little bottle and keep him on a shelf so I can shake him when I'm annoyed - #and let him out from time to time to have a little fun with? #Also; regrettably; yes.

[forestgreenlesbian]

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#feel like such a freak idiot all the time & i never react in the right way and then i hate myself afterwards for reacting wrong and #i'm so scared of like making every situation about my autism that even when i bring it up as a possible explanation for something i've done #i feel like a burden and like i'm making excuses and expecting everyone around me to accommodate my stupid behaviour #but i can't stop doing the thing in the first place no matter how hrd i try because those behaviours are literally hardwired into my brain #don't know how to not do them & i feel like i'm killing myself trying to be normal so hard. i just wish i was like not such a weirdo freak #who could cope with literally anything god i'm so fucking tired and sad about everything it's too hard

[bootyful-seventeen]

i am too mentally exhausted to even deal with this shit anymore with my mom and grandma and low key wish i'd go comatose for a few years to be left alone tbh

#had a clean up service come by to see the damage and give a quote on the estimate and my grandma wasnt having it #she got upset and started crying to them about she has only 1 daughter and is trying to help her and they're trying to tell her that keepin #all that junk isn't gonna be helping anyone especially my mom but she wasn't getting it and i said i'm not helping clean the junk that's #all around the house cuz i'm tired of it all and having to manage my emotions since i am for sure emtotionally stunted from my childhood #and have to deal with a schitzophrenic mom and an absent sister who's balls deep in denial while i'm struggling to find a job here #and my grandma always stressing me ot saying she's gonna kick me out isn't fucking helping here at all like she thinks it does #so when they left she spent all day sobbing on the phone how i'm a terrible granddaughter who wants to throw out good stuff #when i'm not gonna keep helping sell shit for my mom cuz my sister can do it as her family contribution since she did nothing since dad die #and the thing is i gave them all options on clearing shit out cuz i know this family by now and shit doesn't get tossed but it migrates #cuz i said months ago i can ask some friends if they could come down and help sort and declutter #grandma said no to that and said she'll kick me out if i do it and she didn't want to pay for my mom's shit to get moved into a storage uni #she leaves the clean up to my mom and i think the backyard got worse but she didn't call anyone to throw out the junk like she threatened t #so i call a fucking hoarders clean up service cuz that's what my family is on my mom's side at this point and the city will be called too #and she has this reaction cries all day and calls everyone to say i'm horrible and yells at me saying i'm the one killing her with stress #when she's already been doing that for months to herself when i'm just tired and possibly mildly depressed or something idk #i barely leave my room and don't go outside except to walk my dog but idk cuz my family's attittude was we don't go to doctors cuz #cuz they're for crazy people but of course it's gotta switch up for my mom and no one else and i'm just sick of it all #grandma doesn't accept free help and she won't accept help that i pay for myself with my money set aside for school so i'm done #unlike her when i say i'll do something i stick to it so i'm not doing shit anymore unless i can call a friend to help with this mess #it's gonna sound like such a horrible thing but i can't wait for my family to die so i can live in a clean home again and get help #like deep serious help cleaning and big time grief councelling cuz i barely had time to process my dad's death and being the one to find hi #and that was just this february like god i am going to need so much fucking therapy in my future it's almost rediculous #and probably say screw my mom's side and visit my dad's side a lot more since they seem to be the normal ones in this shit family tree #at least they're not stupid and leave junk everywhere where one neighbour getting sick of not being able to sit outside and enjoy their yar #without mountains of junk staring them right in the face and landing a notice from the city to clean up especially since #we have chainlink fences and at least 7 neighbours can see the backyard and everyone can see the front porch when passing by #i'm just tired of living in these suffocating households and even wanna file a report myself to kick them into gear #its horrible living like this and no one should live surrounded by junk and things they never use or even garbage

[thebleedingeffect]

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#okay I'm talking in the tags of this post cause shit is happening in my life and I gotta talk about it somewhere #one part of it is my step brother crashing and burning before my very eyes and there's nothing I can do to stop his own destructive actions #so it's just me watching this poor kid ruin his relationships and blame everything and everyone around him as he does so #despite the fact that he's undeniably been treated horribly at times- he's just turned that anger back onto others and himself #and I have no idea what to feel as I watch him get arrested. have drug problems. because I'm just waiting for the inevitable spiral #it doesn't help that my mom has been comparing us and saying that I'm the much better child and she wishes he was like me #not understanding that I could’ve been him if I was just more angry at the world at that age instead of being so sad and scared #and that leads me to my fucking mom cause like- I love her. we've been through alot of bad shit with her #I've almost done some really bad shit for her and I know that she loves me more than anything else #but it feels like its been getting more and more suffocating cause I'm not sure she's able to start seeing me as an adult #and start loosening her grip around me and let me breathe. to have my own experiences without her by my side #to be able to go places and imagine a future without her constantly by my side #she talks and it's like she doesn't even think to wonder that perhaps I want to form my own experiences #and experience the world on my own terms because I feel like I've spent my whole life having so little damn control #religious family. shit and neglectful father who turned into the exact opposite and nearly killed me. family who refuses to listen and talk #having to move and run immediately. put survival above all else. go to school. get out. and god I just wanna breathe #she loves me so much and I love her too. but I feel like I'll be sooner crushed if I stick here for long enough #I'm just mad that my life has been nothing but absolutely no love. sudden waves of intense love. absolutely nothing. sudden spike #and I feel like I'm just finally starting to form good. healthy relationships on my own terms and actually make friends #because I had no idea what I was doing when I was a kid cause I was so fucking lonely and hurting #now I just. gotta figure out how to tell my mom that I can't carry this expectation that I'll continue to stay forever by her side #it just feels like I'm her child first and a person second. and it sucks. it really sucks. #ough. spins and spins and spins and spins-

[moe-broey]

IT'S SO OVER

#screaming crying throwing up #i'm. not gonna have tjat art done on time. #esp bc tomorrow i'm busy. i have to leave thw house and Do Things #UNBEARABLE. UNBELIEVABLE. #tbh maybe it's my own fault. my hubris. thinking i could complete That in time #i'm going to die one thousand deaths about it though i'm gonna scream and cry and blow up the whole world #also again maybe my own fault. i have been drawing since like. morning. 9am probably. #like 6pm coffy is not gonna cure Doing Too Much. probably. #my vessel is suuuujch a weak ass baby bitcj though WHY aren't you invincible and full of energy all of yhe time. bitch. cunt. #i'm so fuckinh tired i'm gonna writhe like a dead snake. #i am legitimately so fucking mad though. like it just hit me all at once and now i'm incurable. KILL EVERYONE RIGHT NOW‼️‼️‼️💥💥💥💥💥🔥🔥

[daz4i]

bro i hate my country's politicians so much it's unreal

#i truly and sincerely hope they all die in a fire i am not even slightly joking #they promote violence and encourage an even deeper split between the people. bc it helps them #and it's disgusting. they don't care who they hurt as long as they get more power #actually they DO care who they hurt. they WANT to hurt people!! that's how they get more right wing voters!!!!! #they openly and proudly announce they want palestinians dead and out of their homes and it's sickening #(the fact this is WHY people vote them is even more sickening. they fact they were allowed to get this far is awful) #in addition to that they ofc want the lgbt community dead and they actively hurt women's rights bc how can they not :^) #i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here i hate it here #sorry for talking politics. i try to avoid it but everyone on social media is talking about it. i'm so tired i hope we all explode fr #actually i'm not done i really need to vent lol #it really feels like there's no hope. the fact it keeps happening. and it gets worse every election cycle #and it's all bc fucking netanyahu is trying to avoid going to jail :^) i hope he dies today right now actually #for years everyone on the left jokes abt moving to another country but now it's becoming literally real #many people already HAVE left the country!!!!! like how fucked up is that!!!!!! that's how bad things are here!!!!!! #there's been rallies and protests for months now. i think nearly half a year at this point bc i remember it started in the winter #but obviously it doesn't do jack shit. bc why would it. if none of the right wing politicians literally get murdered - #- there is no real threat to them and so they have no actual reason to care. i sincerely think someone should take one for the team - #- and kill one of them lol i truly think this is the only solution at this point. #not to mention many of them are literally just. gross people. you hear them talk and can tell they have no experience in politics #they're all violent and constantly yell and this is how they appeal to the other violent people here #which is also why i think violence is the only way they'll understand. but alas if the left becomes violent we will be hated even more #ignoring the fact they have been violent this whole time yeah? they literally try to RUN OVER PROTESTERS #do you see why i have no hope here. do you see why i hate this so much. how can one be optimistic about this. everything sucks

[bylertruther]

thinking about how lonnie only ever cared about will when he died and that was just to profit off of his death + will giving a girl he doesn't know his toy truck just because she's crying and he thinks she needs it more even if he knows joyce can't buy him another one + one of the very first things will did upon waking up in the hospital was ask if jonathan was okay + will telling them to close the gate in season two even though he's part of the hivemind and that would've killed him, too + will breaking his own heart by confessing his feelings and giving mike the painting he's spent so long on but saying that all of it came from el thus sacrificing his own wants and self to again help others + how that same selflessness and self-sacrificing nature of his is going to undoubtedly rear its head in season five again because he's at the center of it all and it all goes back to him and vecna is a creature that feeds off of n fans the flames of pain and guilt... feelin very scared n anxious in this chili's tonight over this actually 😳

#he is NOT going to die obviously clearly we know this they're not killing kids #BUT. #i'm just saying.... i don't think it would be crazy for him to feel guilty and like maybe this wouldn't have happened if... #well... u kno.. :( #he would never give up bc that's literally his whole thing that he's a fighter and a survivor #but. he does love his friends and his family. and he has been willing to die if it meant saving them before so like. yanno. #BUT IT WON'T HAPPEN I'M JUST SAYING THE ANGST IS LIKELY GOING TO BE THERE #AND THEN OFC EVERYONE IS GOING TO BE LIKE ARE YOU FUCKING CRAZY WILLIAM SHUT UP SIT DOWN AND GO TO TIME OUT #and then we'll get some good n scrumptious hurt/comfort ok no one stone me i'm knocking on wood ok i Kno #just imagine will proposing that and everyone immediately says NO and mike especially gets pissed #because he's SICK and TIRED of fucking losing will every single time he thinks he's got him back #and god dammit he's already seen what life is like without will there he's not going to do it again he's NOT #don't go where i can't follow + crazy together + it was the best thing i've ever done + it's hawkins it's not the same without you #versus closegate + el commissioned it + she needs you and she always will #mike who is clutching onto will for dear life unwilling to let him go and will who is all too willing to #walk through the gates of hell if it means saving everyone he's ever loved and putting them out of their misery #but of course there's a better plan and letting will die is like killing a puppy it's like taking a sledgehammer to the foundation of #everything yanno. without heart we'd all fall apart n u can't beat the darkness without the light #anyway. can u tell i'm procrastinating editing my fic rn n thats why im writing epic poems in these tags <3 #mine

[williamrikers]

haven't finished watching 1899 yet but the fascinating thing about it is that they put just about every single horror trope they could think of in there and yet none of them are executed well. for every single story element, i can name a show that Did It Better™

#so many of these things COULD be scary but they just. aren't. #and i'm not sure why that is the show isn't actually bad it's well-made and intriguing enough for me to keep watching #but it's also certainly not good #idk how to explain it #like. think of the episode where everyone is mind-controlled into killing themselves right #now compare and contrast that with the cybermen two-parter in doctor who season 2 #where the same thing happened and it still terrifies me TO THIS DAY #i get shivers just thinking about it #or like. the world behind the world thing? fairly boring in 1899 but done EXCELLENTLY in dghda #or the episode where they go over to the prometheus that should have been scary as FUCK but it wasn't?? #and the creepy child isn't as creepy as he is just. idk. unlikeable? #certainly not the vibe i would go for if i put a creepy child in my story but whatever #the scenes in the mental hospital -- done a thousand times better in penny dreadful #one thing i will say is that ling yi's backstory was done perfectly and is easily one of the highlights of the show for me #anyway dghda is so much better and i keep wishing i were watching that instead #ALSO!!! why is the intro shit 🧐 #like. for a show like this you need a strong punchy and SHORT intro like. you know. dghda had 😮‍💨 #i am begging everyone to watch dghda i am down on my knees here BEGGING you to watch it #don't know whether i should even put this into the tag i know it's bad form to put criticism in there #when people just want to enjoy their fun little show #i think i'll just add some more tags that can be blacklisted like #1899 hate #anti 1899 #1899 negativity #1899 #*mine

[astralflows]

[me, after casting my 20th rez during my daily trial roulette] i think i understand fandaniel

#i'm not even joking #we didn't wipe but i somehow turned into a rez bot. i'm not a red mage. i don't have dual cast. #people just kept dying and at some point i was like 'yk what maybe i should die too just to see what happens. would be hilarious right?' #but i'm not a clown so i just kept rezzing people #like. i had to healer lb3 at some point. it took us 20mins to kill the damn boss #of course it was fucking castrum marinum #the worst part is. everyone had done this trial before. #so idk what went wrong?? it isn't the most complicated boss (assuming you've watched a guide)

[finna-liveblog]

Did Wes Come back??? I stopped watching htgawm After his death

Oh boo so did I, but luckily for you I've never not been obsessed with my baby Wes Gibbons so I can in fact answer this, only not in a satisfying way ☹️

As far as I can tell, Wes is still dead at the end of the show. A flash forward showed Alfie walking into a room (or sum) and of course everyone freaked out because Wes is back with a new haircut and everything. But as it turns out, this was a misdirect. With more clarification on the scene later on, that was actually Christopher the grown up version of Wes and Laurel's son and he looks exactly like his father.

I never actually watched any of the scenes so I might have some details wrong but that's generally the idea.

I remember being super irritated when I found this out. I had already lost interest in the show for the most part years ago after he died so I wasn't super invested but I was still peeved. It was part of why I stopped watching anyway. Not just because Wes died but because they clearly didn't care about the fans that loved and cared about Wes. I always felt like they prioritized the shock and moment of devastation than the character as well as the people who cared about the character. We followed this character and were invested in him from the start and they just said fuck you and killed him for shock value? That tells me you don't care, and killing a character is my LEAST favorite way of shocking an audience and causing emotion. After seasons of doing it the right ways, this one felt cheap and unnecessary and heartbreaking to those who actually cared about him. Not only did Wes deserve better but the show did too, do that kinda dumb shit in the 100, not here.

And then on top of that, you play with people again by pretend bringing back that very same character, getting people invested again just to let them down again. Like... Okay fuck us ig. Cause there was no reason at all for y'all to bring Alfie back and let people believe for a moment that Wes could have still been alive this whole time other than "we're gonna really fuck with people"

At the end of the day he's just a character and it's just a show and the writers have the right to do whatever they want. But considering how big the show was and how much people talked about it and how furious people were when Wes died and how many people stopped watching and how it just kinda lost a bit of that shine that was there in the beginning, I wonder was it worth it? I mean really, was the bit worth it? Cause I don't think it was

Sorry to ramble. I clearly have a lot of feelings about this still

#also I'm a writer so I'm not even just viewing this as a viewer who loved Wes #I'm literally looking at the story like was it necessary to kill him #or did you just wanna shock everyone #it was cheap 🤷🏾‍♀️ #and to me brought down the writing of what i remember to be a brilliantly written show #characters die all the time but imagine following Harry Potter #for like 3 or 4 years and then they kill him in book 4 #and other than mourning him everyone just moves on #lol guys turns out he wasn't important and his story is done #like even if he's not your favorite you're kinda like well what the fuck we're the first three books about #why did i bother caring #and why do i bother caring about anyone else #just because it's a shock? it's stupid #look at me still ranting #I'm done now #HTGAWM #how to get away with murder #wes gibbins

[ohbutwheresyourheart]

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#i just want it to be okay #i just want some glimmer of actual hope in the midst of the shitshow i call my life #because right now i can't see how i'm ever going to get to a life worth living #never gonna afford property #never going to be able to afford to do jack shit period #everyone i know talks about travelling and settling down and making lives with their partners #and i'm just here drowning and drowning and FUCKING DROWNING #i will never be good enough #i will never amount to anything #and i wish to god i could just kill myself and be done with it #i'm so. so. sick. of everything. #i keep trying. i promise i do. but it doesn't work. #and i feel like the fact nobody can give me any hope #just proves there's no point left in trying #i want it to be over #i want to be done #i want to rest

[lion-sensei]

oooorgh

#matthew you have got to stop ending episodes like this it's Fucking Mean #I am not filled with confidence when you do things like this #the last time you ended an episode like this LAUDNA DIED #and she's STILL DEAD #listen. I know it's ''probably fine.'' it's ''probably just the demiplane collapsing when they killed delilah'' or something #but it makes me nervous that they did not CONFIRM that they had achieved the actual mission that they were on #also laudna could have been there for that whole battle!!! #let your wife play dungeons and dragons!!! #I'm a conspiracy theorist at this point they're dragging it out purposely so that the res happens in silly halloween costumes #if we even GET THE RES NEXT EPISODE BECAUSE I KEEP SAYING THAT AND IT KEEPS NOT HAPPENING #guys. why are you doing this. you're all going to cry and ruin your stupid costume makeup #god. we're going to get marisha's costume for announcements and then she's going to leave : ( #what if she just comes in normal clothes and is like ''what. I'm not playing today'' #(and then hopefully comes back in a costume if they revive her) #again. if. #I'm inconsolable I just want her back I miss her so bad : ( #how is everyone else doing #okay I'm done #Critical Role #CR spoilers

[certified-pretty-boy]

hi this is incredibly off topic and none of you need to read this i just needed to Vent for a sec

#hi yes i need to vent somewhere and this is the least likely place for the ppl i don't want to see this to accidentally see it #god today has been rough #in good news mentally I'm not actually that bad #like I'm really aware that today could've sucked more and mentally i feel pretty reasonable alk things considered #but I'm dealing with a flare up and i woke up today just so incredibly sick #had to replan my entire day cancel therapy couldn't take a shower etc #my heart has been acting up really bad and i literally spent the first like 6 hours of the day Shaking i was so ill #and i had a minor fall and just overall feel a little bruised and banged up #and it's also a Bad pain night my ribs are fucking killing me breathing is Excruciating #and that's with my usual meds + my as needed ones #and multiple people I'm really close to who live far away are having a really hard time rn #and it's been rough having to just...sit back and watch them hurt all alone #i did get some work done on one of my younger sibling's b-day gifts though so hey at least there's that #anyways I'm tired and i really need to give all my close friends a hug asap and also i would like to cry for an extended period of time #off topic #seriously i do not expect any of you to read this far i just needed to feel like i was Telling Someone #and everyone i feel close enough to to actually personally tell is having too hard of a time rn #so i am simply venting into the vortex that is the tags on tumblr 😂

[stonesandswords]

welp it’s less than 2 hours until October and I never published a fanfic for the month of September and I absolutely hate myself for it and i will be crying about it, for fact.

#everyone says fandom is supposed to be fun but i've literally never had a good time #all it's done is bring me insane amounts of anxiety and i literally don't know what i'm here for #yes i've made acquaintances but everyone is better friends with each other and i willl forever remain the odd man out #like i know i dislike a lot of popular fandom head canon but i think it's unfair for so many people to hate me for that #the point is we're allowed our own opinions #but my opinions always seem so controversial and divisive the clearly i'm the fucking jack ass for disagreeing and being my own person #it's made me so scared to share my thoughts and opinions because more often than not; i lose friends for sharing my thoughts and it sucks #i just wish i had people i could share my opinions with and not have them cut me off #and then being part of a server that essentially fucked me over because i was trying to be as authentic as possible ... #killing myself good bye lmfao