#just arriving with a playstation and 2 controllers like 'hi :] we're going to hang out now'

[axemetaphor]

this evening's thought: thinking about how john is So attached to dave that he gave dave a role in his band, presumably as an excuse to get him to actually attend their concerts, despite dave having 0 musical capacity and, seemingly, not wanting to have any musical capacity, and also not being made to play an instrument but just... doing something really stupid on stage then fucking off for the rest of it. fully believe if john could physically lift dave he would just drag that man with him everywhere

#'i was the guy who fell down and died at the start' that whole thing #i think a lot about john and his attachment issues and how even though daves the closest person to him he still cant let dave fully know hi #how when dave starts pushing him away during book1 john just starts showing up on his doorstep--i think unannounced iirc #just arriving with a playstation and 2 controllers like 'hi :] we're going to hang out now' #i like to take the interpretation that john really does want to let dave in more but is both unable to know how to do so #and scared of actually doing so #because obviously john's got so many problems--so many more than he lets on. i mean pargin apparently describes john as a tragic figure #and i can totally fucking see it man #anyways. yknow. yeah. #jdate #rambles.txt #john dies at the end