#its what i have with my gf by the way we're best frieeends but also i want to know a lot of people this way

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okokokok you know what. the lesbian label fits me best specifically because i hate romance & falling in love i think all that shit's stupid. The only thing thats worth it in life is having a tension filled two-little-girls-on-the-playground-pretending-to-be-horses level intensity friendship where basically no words or outside concepts exist beside the deep fascination and kinship you have with another human being & its a friendship to the outside world but on the inside its an unspeakable understanding of self & other with no limits or boundaries as to the aspects that are concealed and revealed and the kind of intimacy that is possible & the only rule is having fun and keeping up the synchronicity thats vibrating between your two spirits. Sorry if that makes me sound like a cringe hippe but genuinely people who are like i wanna fall in looooove im like your desires are lame & small and i pity you. Romance-love is inferior to playground bff friendship-love in every way but we live in a society that does everything to hide this fact from people....why.....

#& i don't mean a sexless friendship i really mean all types of intimacy are possible. but they're not EXPECTED theres no script #sex happens if it feels relevant & interesting but otherwise why would it #& this kind of thing genuinely does go beyond gender its just that men are usually incapable of letting this happen #its what i have with my gf by the way we're best frieeends but also i want to know a lot of people this way #except almost no one gets it...its my burden in this life to try to make people understand #when you turn an intense friendship into a romantic rship you lose something invaluable and then its gone forever #not because you've added sex into it cause you can in fact do that. its just people don't know how. its a careful & difficult process #you have to remain present & not lose yourself in a movie script that tells you what to do & how to be. instead you have to keep being #yourself & only doing things that arise naturally. people have no trouble doing it until they get self conscious & then its impossible #do you see my life burden