#it'd be cool to talk to them again ig?? i dunno lol very on the fence about that

[steampunkedparm]

gods fuck i figured it out moonsetter is aching loneliness, its isolation, its that faint hint of optimism when you step outside, its knowing your fucked but pushing on anyways trying to fruitlessly reach out and grasp what matters

#im very incoherently rambling #i dont know how to deal with the intense emotions moonsetter gives ne #it hurts in such a nostalgic way #it's not an unpleasant pain it just?? is???? #it makes me think so hard about homestuck and how much ive changed from the person who last read it #honestly game over (not the [s] but the quiet music box one) does the same thing #honestly they mostly make me kinda miss the person i was friends with on my first read through of homestuck :P #never thought id say that tbh fhdhdh #for all the shit i put her through and vice versa and how much of an asshole I was in middle school #im glad i can look back at some things at least with a certain degree of fondness :3 #like we were still friends they were one of my three best friends at the time and im glad i at least got to read hs with someone #I don't think we'd be friends today though and frankly i don't even know if I'd want to be friends with her again #it'd be cool to talk to them again ig?? i dunno lol very on the fence about that #not in a i hate your guts you suck way #I just dont think we'd mesh well and we kinda really didn't even in middle school yk #fjfhd trying not to cry to mother now gods fuck im so fine we're so strider cool rn #anyways yeah blah blah rigitoni rambling about middle school again whats new