#in part because sam shoots up like a bean pole and has to bend down(physically and morally) to meet john's eyes *ba dum tsh*

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anyway. trans man sam good

#john dead names him SO MUCH #sam is like 6'fuckoff tall broad shoulders flat chest sideburned out to hell and john is like #this is my daughter-- oh i mean. i guess. child. or something. OUT OF PURE STUBBORNNESS #like thats the first crack in the Hero Worship armor for dean. is watching not just how his dad treats sam(in canon) #but how his dad treats sam's transness #they fight about everything but it always comes back to that because its easy. its painful but its the elephant in the room #its unavoidable and right there in front of yu and its somehow sam rebelling by conforming(in a weird way) and like #john just wants everything to stay the same he hates that mary died and that she's gone and that the boys are grown #and he hates that sam changed ''the body mary gave her'' or whatever #they never see eye to eye on it they never can. #in part because sam shoots up like a bean pole and has to bend down(physically and morally) to meet john's eyes *ba dum tsh* #god..... young dean sitting john down when theyre alone and quietly asking him why. why all the anger about this #why can't he just support sam on this? #and NEVER getting a satisfying answer. because there isnt one. there IS no good reason #just blind hate and a desire to control #hhhhhhhhhhHHHHH #trans sam tag