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blue-hi · 4 years

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i’ve been awake since 4:30 am and it’s 9:00 now so i need to get this out because it’s been months and i havent been able to spit the whole thing out and i need to SAY something so i think i’ll jst yell into the void so

thanks

ive had insomnia since at least mid october. cant really remember now when it started. i’d keep waking up in th emiddle of the night, always around 2 or 3 am and it would take ages to get back to sleep.

ive never been one for all nighters and i like getting a full night’s sleep and all of a sudden i wasn;t getting it and for no reason too. this scared me. it still scares me. i reached out to my mom for idk emotional support??? i didn’t want to be alone

“this happens to other people too” started out as a way to help but the way she said it sounded like she was dismissing me and what was happening. like it would all clear up soon so i had no reason to bother her

then the week before halloween almost all my classes assigned projects or had a test and they were all assigned at the same time at the end of the week and were all due at the same time on halloween. the saturday before halloween and after i got all the assignments i slept particularly awfully and i just broke down in th emiddle of the library. like all day and i couldn’t stop. that scared me even more bc if it happened once it can happen again

im terrified. that’s the core of the issue

that day my mom and aunt got me a plane ticket to fly home for the next weekend to see if being home would fix things. we even had a doctor’s appointment it didn’t fix anything. the doctor told me things i already knew but also decided i had generalized anxiety disorder and that was why i couldn;t sleep even though i wasn;t scared until after it started and i slept terribly that night again. i was hysterical. i still had no idea why i couldn’t sleep i shouldn’t have paced that loud in the hallway but yeah i wanted attention i felt alone. maybe it was selfish but i just wanted a hug and i knew then i was in for the long haul and i didn’t want to be afraid AND be alone but my mom just yelled at me (which she had the right to i was being not-great) and i felt i was burdening her. that’s when i realized she either can’t or won’t be there with me or both

i went to the counselor at my school and i just vented. not all of this but some of it and i had other problems at the time like my major and some classes but those had all worked themselves out by the end of november i also went to the health center and got a little bottle of this drug called hydroxyzine and that started helping a little bit. i was taking tylenol pm every night before that and apparently this was something stronger

then thanksgiving rolled around and i was still having some issues. one thing i remember most vividly is twin and i were going to drive to our dad’s house for the day. normally i drive but i handed the keys to twin because i hadn’t slept well and didn’t feel like driving. my mom noticed and asked why i didn’t want to drive and i SHOULD have lied and said that i wanted twin to practice but i told he truth and said i felt too tired to drive and she rolled her eyes at me later in the break one morning she asked me how i slept again and i said poorly and i was still half asleep but i swear she scoffed

then i knew i REALLY couldn;t expect her to help me. not even with the sleeping but just with support.

i went back to the school counselor (different person though) and! my mom still doesn’t know about that visit. she doesn;t know that counselor said that insomnia sometimes predates depression symptoms. should i tell her that? that’s also terrifying. i managed to get out of high school without really any mental illness issues so i;m a lucky one but that’s what i’m scared about going forward

i feel like it’s not as serious as it feels and that no i don’t have anxiety and no i don’t have depression (yet) and that i should just suck it up until i do but also i can have emotions because i;m a fucking person and ‘m allowed to tell people about them without feeling like a burden or a fake bc god forbid i have a single negative emotion in front of someone. i’ve always been a “good girl low maintenance child” and FUCK that

weirdly i started to sleep well during finals week and these past 2 weeks on break too but i think that’s because the hydroxyzine started to kick in. except oops now my supply is low and i have about a week or two left until i completely run out and the little bottle says NO REFILLS LEFT so i have to figure out how to get more for the semester last night i tried to go to bed without taking one to see if i’ve gotten any better. news flash nothing’s changed without it and now everything that had gone away in the last 3 weeks all the anxiety and hopelessness and tiredness and terror all came back last night and right now i feel like i;m back in the library again bc i can’t stop crying

what if i can’t get more before the semester starts?? if i’m like this during break what’ll happen when i have to stress again?

i came downstairs at 8 to do organic chemistry on khan academy because if i can’t sleep then i might as well do something productive. mom came down to get ready for work and she saw me and asked me if i was upset about not sleeping again

i was an idiot and said yeah - that’s what i hate too. i want to be honest about mental health with people and how i’m doing but to stop this i need to lie to her. now i’ll always be fine! and she never has to know if i;m in a bad way just as she likes it and i feel a w f u l about it. it makes be feel petty and petulant but i’m non confrontational. i want to tell her everything i;ve written here and just be so honest she has to listen to me instead of dismissing me every time but every time she asks i clam up and i failed again this morning she accused me of wanting to feel scared because “i hadn’t tried everything yet”. she and family members for christmas sent me some things that are supposed to help like a light developed by insomniacs or a winter light and i really do appreciate all of it, but they all came when the medicine was working so i didn’t NEED it. last night was different because i am a scientist and am my own guinea pig and i wanted to see what would happen if i didn’t take the drugs. i’ll use all of that tonight in Phase 2 of the Worst Experiment Ever but she wouldn’t LISTEN to me when i said that either.

now i’ll just say nothing. why should she know it’s only caused both of us stress. i wish she would take this (insomnia! depression!! mental health woo!) as seriously as she took my acne when i was 12. still now if i have a zit she feels entitled to touch my face. do you wanna know how you can help??? stay away from me and don’t wonder why i kind of want to tell her. she’s coming back home in a couple of hours bc it’s new year’s eve and i might still be in a state who knows but i’ll choke again and she’ll yell at me again and nothing will have changed

people have asked me how my semester went and “it’s been a shitty one,” i wanna say but normally i just say that i’m glad it’s over only for my parents to swoop in and say “it can’t have been all that bad i mean you did well with your grades in the end” like !! i pulled that B in physics out of my ass! just because i did ok academically because i’m lucky and good at school doesn’t mean my health was great! my dad can’t help me either because i’ll say that my mental health recently isn’t as good as it could be and he just goes “aww sweetie.” and that’s it. nothing else. thanks dad. i know you don’t know what to do with that information and i don’t fault you for that because emotions have never taken precedence in either household (except for all the curse words i learned from my mom when she’s inconvenienced)

all of this and i still don’t know why i can’t sleep normally

thanks for reading this fkn novel all of this has been on my chest for a LONG time and i haven’t had the chance to say any of it and if i get the chance i’m afraid i’ll forget something (i probably did here, too). i truly mean thank you. this has been cathartic to write, even though i still need to go to a counselor or something. i hope your new year (and decade!) is bright

#i don't know what else to say or do

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the-waifu-smackdown · 7 years

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smartass cough i mean yeah lets get started on this

1- You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

I’d ask them how one of us managed to teleport over 1000 miles and why im naked.

2- What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

uuhhhh we broke up and we haven’t talked in months.

3- If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

yeah kinda

4- Is your last name longer than six letters?

yes

5- Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

all of them have been sober

6- Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

yeah. put simply i made too many strong advances

7- What does your last received text say?

putting aside memes its “it me”

8- How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

fuck i cant remember that

9- Where was your last kiss at?

probably my room

10- When is the last time you saw your sister?

idk its probably been over 7 months

11- What do you drink in the morning?

milk. or water. usually water than milk then water again.

12- Where did you sleep last night?

my room

13- Do you think relationships are hard?

depending on the relationship, yeah. i mean if you feel that a relationship is hard then its not a good relationship.

14- If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

as much as i would want to say otherwise, no.

15- You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

it would be extremely awkward

16- Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

rainy

17- Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

i know people who have my middle name as their first name

18- Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

pajama pants but that’s going to change in about an hour

19- Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

if things go as planned then no

20- Does anyone like you?

yes

21- Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

my ex’s name started with an s

22- Is the last person you kissed gay?

i think they were bi?

23- Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

yeah the person who kicked me out of my last home

24- Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

many times

25- In the past week have you cried?

i cant remember the last time i cried.

26- What breed was the last dog you saw?

mutt

27- Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

outside of the shower. i ain’t wanting to get my towel any more wet than its getting

28- Have you ever kissed a football player?

29- Do you think you’re old?

30. Do you like text messaging?

yeah

31- What type of day are you having?

too early to tell

32- Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

maybe once

33- Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

i prefer cooler weather bc jackets. but not cold because snow is horrible to drive in.

34- Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

yes

35- Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

a relationship

36- Are you a simple or complicated person?

i like to think myself on the simple side but then again all people are complicated

37- What song are you listening to?

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8IK6eLTNV1k

38- When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

i try to

39- Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

she knows a lot about me and i know a considerable amount of her

40-What made you start liking the person you like now?

shit that’s a whole can of worms. i guess its when she convinced me to start taking philosophy classes and fencing and i got to start spending a lot of time with her her slowly learning about her and her good sides and her bad sides and at some point i fell for her.

41- When did you last receive a text message?

at 4:30 am while i was asleep

42- What is wrong with you right now?

shit bro i aint even about to touch that. too much to talk about

43- How well do you know the last female you texted?

if we are talking about the group text then ive been friends with both of them for over 6 years now. shit its been 6 years? if we are talking about individual conversations then i would like to say that i know them pretty well.

44- Does anyone disgust you?

remember the person who kicked me out of my last home? yeah.

45- Would you date someone right now if they asked?

it depends on a lot of things; if i didn’t know who they were and they asked me out of the blue then i would probably refuse but if it was someonw who i knew a bit better then i would consider it.

46- Are you in a good mood right now?

i suppose

47- Who was the last person you talked to in person?

a friend of mine

48- What color shirt are you wearing?

aqua ish?

49- Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

i wont say there has been anything that i haven’t wanted to hear. definitely things that have made me uncomfortable but not anything i would outright say that i wouldn’t want to hear

50- Anyone you’re giving up on?

i give up on people on a daily basis you need to be more specific

51- Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

shit i cant let myself hate them

52- Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

yeah

53- Do you like rain?

yes

54- Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

as long as its not excessive not really

55- Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

you mean right now?

56- Do you like to cuddle?

yeah

57- Are you shy?

kinda? i know how to be sociable when i need to. learn how to do something sop that you don’t have to do it.

58- Do you get along with girls?

most of my irl friends are girls

59- Have you dated the person you texted last?

60- What do you carry with you at all times?

phone, wallet, notepad

61- If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

i used to live in a building that was supposedly haunted. once you get on good terms with the ghosts its not that bad

62- Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

if its the right kind of relationship then yeah.

63- Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

64- The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

i don’t think id be able to function of they kissed me on the forehead

65- Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

define cute. how are we using this?

66- How old are the last three people you kissed?

excluding my mother we have about 21, 25, and 21

67- Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?

do them myself

68- Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

zebra

69- Do you have any stickers on your car?

yeah. because i bought the car from a family i was friends with it has a zombie family on it. if i can fins my triforce stick ill put that on there too

70- Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?

who? who?

71- Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?

android

72- When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?

i dunno

73- Do you like diet soda?

74- What color are the walls in your room?

beige

75- Are you 16 or older?

im older

76- Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?

what?

77- Do you have a job?

yeah i gotta get ready soon for that

78- What are your initials?

NTS

79- Did you ever have braces?

80- Are you from the south?

81- What does your last status on Facebook say?

i haven’t touched Facebook in ages

82- Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?

yes

83- Are you closer to your mom or your dad?

probably my mom but I’m really close to my dad too

84- Have you ever done cheer leading or gymnastics?

does yoga count?

85- What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?

probably guardians of the galaxy 2

86- Do you smoke?

87- Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?

probably heels unless they are stilettos on any type of high heel

88- Is your phone touch screen?

yes

89- Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?

my hair only slightly curls so straight

90- Have you ever snuck out of your house?

i think so. its been about 4 years since i lived at home and if i have it would have only been once

91- Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?

rivers are fun

92- Have you ever made out in a car?

yeah

93- …Had sex in a car?

…i dont think i have?

94- Are you single or in a relationship?

single

95- What were you doing last night at midnight?

reading this ask and deciding to go to bed and answer it in the morning

96- When’s the last time you saw fireworks?

last night

97- Do you like the camera on your phone?

its a decent camera

98- Have you ever had a friend with benefits?

i guess my first relationship was actually fwb situation but honestly it was so messed up that i cant even remember

99- Have you ever passed out from drinking?

100- Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?

probably

101- Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?

every time a girl wants me to do her raw

102- Name your favorite Kesha song:

i think blow is my favorite

103- Do you have any tan lines right now?

right above my butt and some subtle tan lines on my arms

104- Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?

are you crazy?

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classybitchtay-blog · 7 years

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"If you love something set it free"

I thought i won. For once i had won. For once i fought hard enough. For once i was the princess. I was the happiest I'd ever been knowing i had you. And thats what happens when you give yourself a false sense of happiness. Not once did you tell me what was really going on. I knew about her. I knew she was liking your posts. I knew something was still between you but like a god damn fool i believed you when you told me i didnt have to worry about her. That you're just friends. Well listen buddy friends dont walk each other to class friends dont kiss. I bet you thought it wouldn't get back to me but guess the fu k what mate. I have pictures. I have pictures if everything becuase i fucking know everything. You told me you didnt want her you said you wanted me. I could see it in your eyes, the way you look at me. If i could I swear I'd take you and leave this small town. Somewhere beautiful where we could start over and no one would know us. What a perfect life we could have. You say you want me, but you turn around to her five minutes later. All I've wanted was you since i looked into your eyes. We talked so much today, i guess this was the day you decided.. We talked once you got home from school and everything was prefectly fine, and somehow i forgot about all the bad things for a few minutes. But then you messaged me, and we started arguing. You said you were going to be with her. And I had one if the worst breakdowns ive had in a long time. But i pulled myself together enough to throw my pride out the window and begged for one more perfect weekend. It will be my birthday weekend after all, plus we've already planned this. Finally you made me a deal. This weekend will be ours and you wont ask her out til monday, but after monday we are only friends until they break up. I keep telling myself that is a great deal. But deep down i know its not. I'm only going to hurt more and more. The whole weekend all im going to do is know how sad and broken im about to be. I'm going to look into your eyes and know i wont be able to do this for a long time. Im going to feel ypu kiss me for the last time. I know as soon as i drop you off at ypur hpuse on sunday im going to drive as fast as i can away so you dont see me cry. I know I'll be running to the bathroom a few times this weekend so you dont see me cry when I look into your eyes and know how hurt im going to be when you arent here beside me. All i want is your love. All i want is to be yours. I just want you and only you. I would be happy for the rest of my life if i got to spend it with you. I mean honestly what the fuck am i supposed to do sunday night when i cry myself to sleep thinking just last night i had you and now she has you. She gets to go to bed happy and smiling. I bet she even wakes up happy. But me? Dont worry about me while i cry myself to sleep or wake up thinking of you only to open my phone and see 12 pictures of you two or even fight back the tears in my eyes when someone askes how my day has been. No bob my day hasnt been good, im trying to hold myself together as best as i can but god damn all i do is text you or text my friends about you or stock your fb page your snap score her fb page her insta who all has liked your status trust me there isnt 1 minute goes by that you arent running threw my mind screaming. As I sit awake at 5:30am crying in bed wondering if it would even hurt if stuck my cigarette to my thigh. Would it hurt? Probably. Would it hurt me worse than knowing how much my heart is breaking minute by minute, text by text. Hell no. Could I do it? Yes, i could i honestly could right now. Thats the funny thing. Im willing to break my own heart to have one more weekend with you but you arent willing to give up a little skank who is going to fuck up. SHE IS 14 WTF ARE YOU THINKING?! I MEAN IS SHE A VIRGIN?! IF SO FINE FUCK HER and come bsck to me. The one who is willing to break herself into pieces that she just put back to together just for 2 days with you. Do you not see how much it hurts me. Im asking myself what the fuck? Why did I let this happen to me. I never used to care. I was a cold hearted bitch. But he made me soft again. He broke my wall down before i even thought he was knocking on it. I swear im stupid as fuck. But just one more weekend with him id give anything im going to break my own heart for this one. Even though my birthday is 2 days later and I'll be crying on my 19th birthday. I cant in my right mind say he's worth ruining my birthday over but i cant help it. One day the fates will aline and you will see it was me. It was always me. The girl you were supposed to pick. The girl you left broken. One day you'll want to fix her. One day you'll want me as bad as i want you. I just hope you realize it soon. And with writing for a full hour ill leave you with this my dear, I'll always be here, I'll always be your friend. Ill always want you. I'll always miss you. I just hope that one day ill fogive you for breaking me. Breaking my heart. And honestly im sorry but you dont have to know someone for long or even be dating to fall in love. I fell in love with the boy who didnt want me. I fell in love with the boy who could see right threw me, past everything everyone says. I'll always remember the way you held me, the way you loved me. I'll always remember our nights. I'll always remember the way you didn't want me. Ill remember everything because when someone breaks you as bad as you broke me you'll never forget. You wont foget a single moment you spent together. I hope she loves you as much as i do. I hope you make her feel as special as i got to feel. I hope she makes you happy, happier than i did. I hope you want her as much as i want you. Because everyone desevers to be happy right? Even if its for a short amount of time. I pray you realize your mistake and come back to me. "If you love something set it free"

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etomia · 7 years

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1. You woke up naked next to the last person you texted, what would you say?

You want breakfast?

2. What’s going on between you and the last person you kissed?

Awkwardly avoiding each other and not showing that we had a thing or the weird chemistry we have when we have to be at the same social situation.

3. If your boyfriend or girlfriend was into drugs, would you care?

are they still living their life and not going to sell all our stuff or rob people for the drugs? yes? then I ain’t bothered.

4. Is your last name longer than six letters?

5. Was your last kiss drunk or sober?

sober

6. Have you ever wanted to have someone but you messed it up?

I have never successfully expressed wanting someone without fucking it up at some point, but yeah definitely.

7. What does your last received text say?

see you at home :)

8. How many times have you kissed the last person you kissed?

More than 50 times

9. Where was your last kiss at?

In their lounge.

10. When is the last time you saw your sister?

I saw my half sister at countdown the other day.

11. What do you drink in the morning?

Earl grey

12. Where did you sleep last night?

Middle of my queen sized bed.

13. Do you think relationships are hard?

Yes and no. It should be pretty easy if its the right person platonic or otherwise, but disagreements happen and sometimes life is messy and in those times when people get spiky its hard to maintain total love and understanding. Totally worth the hard work sometimes.

14. If you could go back and change something in the past 5 months, would you?

Yeah id workout more, read more, and i would’ve tried harder to see things the way they actually are not what i’m afraid they are.

15. You’re locked in a room with the last person you kissed, any problems?

Yeah we aren’t talking to each other bc they can’t decide what the thing we have is to them . I won’t wait around like a lost puppy for anyone anymore like i did with her

16. Would you rather it be sunny or rainy?

Rainy

17. Do you know anyone with the same middle name as you?

yeah my cousin alessia

18. Are you wearing jeans,sweatpants,or pajama pants?

jorts

19. Do you think you will be in a relationship 3 years from now?

I’d like to think so but i’m not fussed if that doesn’t haooen

20. Does anyone like you?

platonically? a few people.

romantically? i think one or two

21. Have you ever kissed someone with a name that starts with an S?

Sarah. Simon. Saskia. Simone. Sam. Sebastian. Shay. Sophie. Siobhan.

22. Is the last person you kissed gay?

nope they’re bi

23. Is there a person you CANNOT stand?

there’s a list.

24. Have you ever considered getting a tattoo?

shit fam i have a list of them that i want but zero dollars for them

25. In the past week have you cried?

yeah a couple times

26. What breed was the last dog you saw?

pomeranian the teacup sized variety

27. Do you dry off in the shower or out of the shower?

out of wtf

28. Have you ever kissed a football player?

not a pro footballer but a few guys and girls ive kissed played on school teams

29. Do you think you’re old?

not physically im mentally weary

30. Do you like text messaging?

yeah

31. What type of day are you having?

lazy typical and kinda boring

32. Have you ever thought about getting your nose pierced?

again yeah but i have zero dollars

33. Do you prefer warm or cold weather?

warm

34. Is there a person of the opposite sex who means a lot to you?

i have a limited amount of male figures in my life.

I guess Cam (who is sort of a father figure).

35. Would you prefer a relationship or a fling?

Right now a fling or a series of them. But im open to the idea of a relationship.

36. Are you a simple or complicated person?

I’m complex.

37. What song are you listening to?

Seven Devils by florence + the machine

38. When you say you’re sorry do you mean it?

9/10 times the other time im having to apologise to those with power over me for things that really don’t matter

39. Is there a girl that knows everything or almost everything about you?

There’s 3 of them. 40. What made you start liking the person you like now?

Their drunken rendition of light my fire, but i already liked them we’ve grown up around each other. 41. When did you last receive a text message?

an hour ago 42. What is wrong with you right now?

im isolated and self conscious. I worry about not being able to succeed at uni 43. How well do you know the last female you texted?

she’s practically my mom 44. Does anyone disgust you?

So many. 45. Would you date someone right now if they asked?

Yeah but it depends who it is obviously. 46. Are you in a good mood right now?

I’m pretty chilled out rn. 47. Who was the last person you talked to in person?

housemate 48. What color shirt are you wearing?

purple 49. Has someone recently told you something you didn’t want to hear?

yeah a couple of people 50. Anyone you’re giving up on?

No i got rid of all of those people a long time ago. 51. Do you hate the person you fell hardest for?

No they are still very dear to me. I still love them.

52. Have you ever thought about giving up on someone but couldn’t?

yeah but then i did eventually. 53. Do you like rain?

love it love the way it smells love standing in it 54. Do you care if your boyfriend/girlfriend drinks?

no 55. Have you ever liked somebody and never told them?

bro....all the time i can think of 2 people right now 56. Do you like to cuddle?

i am a koala mate i love me some cuddles 57. Are you shy?

shy to start but when i get going no 58. Do you get along with girls?

historically no something always happens. 59. Have you dated the person you texted last?

no 60. What do you carry with you at all times?

claddagh ring? deep sense of self loathing? absurd hope and romanticism? 61. If you were paid 1 million dollars to spend the night in a supposed haunted house, would you?

yeah i ain’t afraid of no ghost (also i have sage and black tourmaline) 62. Do you think you can last in a relationship for five months?

definitely 63. Think back to October, were you in a relationship?

with my hand. 64. The person you like kisses you on the forehead, do you find this cute?

yes ugh so fluffy 65. Did anything “cute” happen in the last week?

my housemate made me crepes

66. How old are the last three people you kissed?

22 19 18

67. Would you rather pay to get your nails done or do them yourself?

get them done 68. Which do you like better- Zebra print or leopard print?

zebra 69. Do you have any stickers on your car?

i dont have a car 70. Would you rather listen to Luke Bryan or Lil Wayne?

lil wayne 71. Blackberry, Android, or iPhone?

iPhone 72. When’s the last time you had pizza from Pizza Hut?

5 years ago 73. Do you like diet soda?

no 74. What color are the walls in your room?

off white 75. Are you 16 or older?

yes 76. Do you watch Pretty Little Liars?

I’ve seen too much im invested til the end 77. Do you have a job?

nope 78. What are your initials?

RGN 79. Did you ever have braces?

not yet fucking orthodontist said i couldn’t get them till my wisdom teeth come down 80. Are you from the south?

I feel this is more of an america question but nope im a westie

81. What does your last status on facebook say?

star emojis great festival 82. Do you still talk to the first person you ever kissed?

hahaha fuck no 83. Are you closer to your mom or your dad?

neither we don’t speak 84. Have you ever done cheerleading or gymnastics?

i did both before i broke my knees 85. What’s the last movie you saw in theaters?

Asassins creed 86. Do you smoke?

socially a few durries or some joints

87. Would you rather wear heels or flip flops?

heels 88. Is your phone touch screen?

yes 89. Do you normally wear your hair straight or curly?

straight 90. Have you ever snuck out of your house?

quite a lot 91. Would you rather swim in a river, lake, or pool?

lake 92. Have you ever made out in a car?

yes 93. …Had sex in a car?

uhhhh does a campervan count? 94. Are you single or in a relationship?

single 95. What were you doing last night at midnight?

sleeping 96. When’s the last time you saw fireworks?

new years 97. Do you like the camera on your phone?

yeah 98. Have you ever had a friend with benefits?

a few times but it doesn’t really work out 99. Have you ever passed out from drinking?

i try not to but a few times 100. Are you friends with people on facebook that you actually hate?

yeah the old wolfpack 101. Have you ever had a pregnancy scare?

once but then i remembered i was infertile because of my pcos and laughed 102. Name your favorite Kesha song:

take it off 103. Do you have any tan lines right now?

my bikini is etched into my back 104. Would you ever wear cowboy boots with shorts?

heck yes i can serve you daisy duke realness bih

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