#im also sad and mad bc my roommates ruined the last batch of fireweed i harvested and bc i've worked so much this month i haven't been able

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roommate has covid (again) (I hopefully dodged it bc I've been out on a work trip all week but still). I apparently got assigned awhile ago to lead next week's work trip but today is the first I heard about it so I'm scrambling to prepare everything on time. a covid conscious person I connected w/ online is coming to visit tomorrow and I'm stressed bc I have to get a bunch of work done before then and also I hope the vibe is cool in-person and that we can be friends! also none of my coworkers have said they can cover my shift tomorrow even though I put the request in the group chat weeks ago and I cover their shifts whenever I can. i am on day 32 of a 41 day stretch of working every single day with only two days off including 9/5 and tomorrow (IF one of my coworkers steps up...) . and then my next day off, in October, isn't even really a day off because I have to drive 4 hours round trip to the nearest city to get an MRI to see whether or not my recently diagnosed genetic disorder has given me internal cysts or tumors. I am hanging on by a thread haha

#god I fucked myself over so bad by having multiple part time jobs instead of one full-time + maybe a flexible side gig like I did last year #don't do it folks #anyways I finally get 4 days off in a row in October and I am going to sleep soooo much #the only thing keeping me afloat today is that I met w/ my former boss abt working for him doing rare books stuff this winter #and it's pretty much the perfect side gig #so i'm going to quit my other one the first week of october i think. finally #personal #im also sad and mad bc my roommates ruined the last batch of fireweed i harvested and bc i've worked so much this month i haven't been able #to go harvest more #i'm hoping that the covid conscious person & I can do that tomorrow! they'd like that i think #but ugh i wanted to forage so much this fall (prickly pear and rose hips and whatnot) #and i haven't had the chance bc i fucking work all the goddamn time and now most things are done #i also haven't checked on my community garden plot in weeks and i know im missing so many ripe tomatoes and peppers and stuff #god it just enrages me how much i have to work just to scrape by. how work demands all of me and leaves no time or energy for anything else #antiwork