#ik you gotta forgive yourself in order to stop loathing yourself but i can't even forgive other people that i don't hate 😐 so

[daz4i]

i really truly genuinely cannot go one (1) day without wanting to die

#ripppppppp #I'm just...... so tired of doing nothing. bc I'm unable to get anything done #and I'm so mad at myself all the time. now I'm mad for fucking up my sleep schedule even more #and mad for not turning on the boiler before showering and waiting too long to eat and not getting anything done today and #this is exhausting but i don't know how to stop #ik you gotta forgive yourself in order to stop loathing yourself but i can't even forgive other people that i don't hate 😐 so #also ik if I'm being too nice to myself my ego gets out of control and i become mean or cross boundaries #and if i hurt anyone in an avoidable way i will just hate myself more so it's kind of a cycle i simply don't wanna get into #ugh I'm rambling again. sorry #vent