#if someone doesn't like gore stuff don't make them suffer wtf

[sparklywatercolors]

Thinking about the time my sister and her now husband thought it was funny to force me watch evil dead rise in the movie theater to where I nearly threw up. I remember the teenagers that snuck in that were sitting next to me were literally comforting me through the whole film. Do you know how awkward that is? Imagine sobbing hiding behind your favorite stuffed animal (that you were mocked about bringing) and some teenagers you didn't even know holding your ears and telling you it'll be okay and to not look and just focus on them ... but you still couldn't block it out. Literally tried to sneak to the bathroom and my sister held my arm down.

I felt so bad for putting that on those kids still but they told me it's not my fault and my family sucks. They even told my sister and her husband to let me leave and wait in the lobby but that fell short. I was literally in mental and physical pain the whole time that my mother of all people had to comfort me when I called her after that hell that night.

Like at first the kids were real funny like telling me it won't be that bad and they'll make jokes the whole time. After the opener, they saw me and all of them asked me if I was okay. It was SO EMBARRASSING 😭.

My sister and her husband however thought it was hilarious 🙄

They wouldn't let me stay at their apartment and do my own thing like they usually would during their movie nights. It was horrible. I didn't sleep that night. That movie still haunts me. And they took me around the same time I was really unstable and missing my one late friend and having episodes of screaming fits about her being gone and then going into huge denial that she wasn't dead and shit. It sucked .

The whole concept of death thing (I try to block it out) in that movie set me off for days. I barely slept I barely ate. But they thought it was funny.

My sister's husband doesn't respect me or my boundaries at all. He gets mad if I even look in his direction. And he gets mad if I say no so he makes my sister guilt me. Ugh. The reason this comes up is bc I had a nightmare again about it just now and i woke up in a cold sweat.

#personal #vent #death mention #if someone doesn't like gore stuff don't make them suffer wtf