#ie Manhattan!! she's just lost both of her parents!! all the family she's ever known!!

[fortes-fortuna-iogurtum]

look I'm sorry, I really am. but if you watch The Husbands of River Song and interpret that as being a definitive picture of what River is like as a person... you're wrong. and you've missed the point.

#*yeets this post at tumblr and then runs away fast before an DiscourseTM can start* #seriously I love THORS with all my heart but y'all canNOT just keep taking everything at face value #and assuming that just because a character claims something as though it's true then it must be true #River says the Doctor doesn't love her and Hydroflax scans her and says it's not a lie and it's not!!! it really isn't a lie!!! #it's not a lie because RIVER believes it in that moment!!! #River is acting out in that story she is trying SO hard to distract herself from the pain and loss she's just experienced #ie Manhattan!! she's just lost both of her parents!! all the family she's ever known!! #and she didn't even get to KNOW them the way a child should know their parents!! her childhood was stolen #and now her parents have been too!! #and given the implication that she and the Doctor have a sort of falling out because of the events of Manhattan #she probably thinks that on some level she's lost him too!! #and that's why it's TWELVE who gets to be there with her in the midst of that adventure #because THIS is a Doctor who she doesn't have to be strong for!!!!! #River almost always had to be the strong one for Eleven #she was the one who had to keep looking at the angel when he broke down she had to break her own hand because he left her to do it #she was always the one pointing him towards the person he must become #she taught him how to love so that he could in turn teach HER!! #but Twelve! Twelve can stand beside her at his full height and look her in the eyes and not back away #he can see her full darkness and her unkindness and when it's over he is still there beside her holding her hand #he is allowed to see the most imperfect and un-River-ish version of River because he is the one who can see it and love her more for it #and I do think THORS is an aspect of River! it's her darker uglier afraid and alone and just desperately trying to distract herself side!! #but it's not like. The Definite River. River As She Truly Is (Without The Doctor There To Perform For). #and I'm slightly tired of seeing that position seemingly taken by a lot of people writing for the character lately #not to gripe about this again but like--a lot of the most recent BF stories featuring River make her feel so shallow?? #she's basically just the most flattened version of Captain Jack. but female. and without the immortality angst that makes him so interestin #ok I'm done yelling into the void now sfdkhdfkh #I have kicked at a (small but potentially feisty) hornets' nest and now I am going to sleep sdkjfkjhsdsf #gurt says stuff #river song #doctor who