#idk why i think about this so much i literally play overwatch and collect criterions i can't get dick or pussy to save my life

[paterklatter]

who up experiencing double internalized homophobia

#'i can't like girls that's unnatural and disgusting' #'i can't ever be a real man if i like men' #CAN I EVER WIN????????? #also i get like physically ill at the idea of marrying a man? not even dating that's fine. just forever tying myself to a man fucks me up #i feel like if i marry a man best case scenario i'm always going to be a faggot worst case scenario i'll be a wife until death #when i daydream about relationships i'm always married to the women and only dating the men #god i wish i were just a straight trans man then i could just be a regular ass man who was born in the wrong body #i transition and i get a job at the office bs factory and marry a woman and adopt 2.5 kids. i know i still wouldn't be normal but i wish #i always imagine i'll be in a happy regular marriage and any past relationships with men was just me 'experimenting' #i know that's bs. i know i like men just as much as women but i wish that it's going to change. i know it won't. but i wish #idk why i think about this so much i literally play overwatch and collect criterions i can't get dick or pussy to save my life #i had an interaction with my mom most akin to the 'damn nobody want you fr fr' meme the other day #i get so few bitches my mom can't even be homophobic anymore she just needs me to fuck already because i'm an embarrassment #peter.txt