#i'm sure he had many a panic attack before labyrinth runners‚ but that doesn't really provide any release

[existencebringsonlypain]

thinking about how hunter never got a fucking break until thanks to them. he goes from failing at eclipse lake to doing anything he can to male up for it to betraying new friends to learning he betrayed new friends to risking a fucking beating to make up for betraying his new friends to attempting to capture some criminals to his entire reality crumbling in front of him to mortal danger and near-certain death to protecting someone else to running in a panic to homelessness and starvation and never leaving that mindset to Oh Shit It's Him He's Gonna Kill Me to Please Don't Let Him Kill Me to needing to save a friend to immediate retraumatization he needs to put aside to soothe the friend to having to explain how they're all gonna die to joining the rebellion and fruitlessly planning how to save the world to Don't Tell Them to not-homophobia-orb to Why Am I Luz (also fighting) to Oh God She's Been Captured And It's My Fault to having his life source drained gradually through a sigil to YOU'RE LYING to Uncle Just Fucking Died to being stranded in another realm and needing (thinking he needs) to protect his kin from the authority figure.

Not ONCE in that stretch of time did he get to stop and process anything. He still has to come to terms with his uncle being evil, and by now he's been splatted by a star child. He has to have been so tightly wound the entire time. The moment he felt safe at the Nocedas' house, I have no doubt that everything just fucking CRASHED into him at once. my guy probably went catatonic for days on end. When there's no threat of death to keep you driven, there's nothing to stop the absolute terror and betrayal, and I'd be shocked if he wouldn't be paralyzed by fear.

#i'm sure he had many a panic attack before labyrinth runners‚ but that doesn't really provide any release #he probably just had to fight his way through so he would stay quiet. the fear never stopped #but there was no time to truly process what was going on #oh‚ camila must have been terrified. she's had these kids for like two weeks or so #and just when she thinks she's got the scared blonde soldier one relaxed‚ he has the worst flashback and panic attack combo she's ever seen #and when she coaxed him out of it after two or so hours of effort #he just. wouldn't respond. he won't move and he's just staring at his hands and his shoulders shake with sobs #but his eyes are dry. he has no more tears to give #and she can't get him to move‚ so eventually she just scoops him up and takes him into her bed with her #and usually he'll hesitate but melt into her touch but right now he's just tense #augh #hunter owl house