#i'm sorry i swear i'm not delusional i'm not rlly writing directly to hermes rn no i'm not Too delusional w fictional charas

[noxtivagus]

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#🌙.rambles #[ ffxiv. ] #endwalker means so much to me.. #'youre not alone' #:<< n then hope & despair n #that scene w hermes means the world to me. #yk the way he. hdkfjalsd everything about it!!!! the way they told the story n the actions they put rlly just. oh my god #the way he opens up. the changes in facial expression. the way his vas say his lines in both english & jpn (just the ones i've listened to) #hermes is such a lonely character ! i like him so much ! #'but now i know i'm not alone. not the only one for whom the flowers weep' #knowing that he's not alone.. comforts him so much. makes the burden of his doubts lighter. giving him hope. #even if it was just for that night in msq ! the way he looks up at the stars.. looking forward to gaining more knowledge in the future #n he thanks the wol so tenderly. he's really so kind at heart #:c hermes speaking of acceptance. if we be different from the rest of the world then so be it. at least i have you; you'll always have me #i'm sorry i swear i'm not delusional i'm not rlly writing directly to hermes rn no i'm not Too delusional w fictional charas #these words just have.. a nice sort of feeling. fuck if they're cheesy let me just dream n say them for a bit #ok but back to hermes :<< 'to know that you too have experienced suffering...is a comfort' & #'it's just...the fact that you are still here in spite of your suffering gives me heart' & #'to so willingly lend an ear to ease my burden... you are a strange one' #his voice is so soft n gentle wtf. the flowers make me so sad omg n then meteion n the stars n. his voice his eyes his smile oh no #the way his vas deliver these lines r just. oh my god that's unfair really #yk.. in the tales from the dawn. 'a question of life'. the way he recounts back on the wol. & w meteion. those nights c: #one thing that gives me comfort is that even though it's been nearly a year since i personally have finished endwalker #i'm still. here. i'm still me. i've gone much further than i ever thought n surely i'll reach even further in time #not alone huh :c ffxiv has a lot on that n on hope n tomorrows n it rlly serves as a. reminder to me #i'll watch the other cutscenes sometime. didn't realize how fast time just passed by rn #i'll write to myself i think before i sleep. i'll try to actually sleep before 2 am this time instead of 4 >< 🥹🤍 #n i can do more tmrrw instead. or even the day after that. i'll try to get as much ffxiv related stuff done tho so we can push w the fc c: #one last wait T_T 'a sentimental gift' quest name n. description; 'you needn't be an entelechy to feel the weight bearing down on hermes' #searching for flowers w meteion.. hehe what bittersweet precious memories of mine.