#i'm not depressed though i'm just whining! i've observed that my life tends to play outs in cycles so i know it'll be fine! always is <3

[hekateinhell]

caught in between being desperate to have time to write fic and also doing my best to navigate adult responsibilities which this week alone look like: an assignment due, a lawyer meeting (everything is fine I just had some questions about stuff), an interview, and my bestie about to go into labor at quite literally any second and I have to be Available

#and i'm sure i'm forgetting stuff #i miss writing!!! #on the plus side a friend sent me a king cake straight from new orleans because i was homesick for louisiana and it is Very Good #hadn't had king cake since 2016 and that's way too long 🤧 #the foundation of my mental health currently looks like dough with icing and colored sugar on top with a plastic baby jesus inside it #i hope i didn't accidentally eat jesus idk #also i've been trying a new antidepressant idk stuff is happening man i miss my fics 🥲 #not that i think i'm an incredible writer or anything but like that was my one creative outlet and #the only one i've ever had that came organically to me #and now i don't have the time for it or when i do i don't have the energy because Chronic Fatigue and anyway i'm very sad about that #it feels like a loss of self in a way and i think i'm gonna go talk to some king cake about this #i'm not depressed though i'm just whining! i've observed that my life tends to play outs in cycles so i know it'll be fine! always is <3 #hekate.txt