#i'm not actively seeking for love but god if i find it somewhere n by chance it happens to be reciprocated. that would be lovely

[noxtivagus]

i want my lover to be a writer

#🌙.rambles #don't mind me just another one of my hopeless romantic antics #i swear i'm not usually so open about that especially for the past year #actually nvm i've always been like this . i still write a lot the same way i used to when i was younger #but i've lost a bit of my carefreeness due to worrying too much abt how others may perceive me ? being afraid in a way #my creativity thrives when i just let myself be comfortable w my own self #the idea of love. n actually loving is so beautiful #it's far from perfect but i know what are my values n goals regarding love #n while i'd really love to have experiences while i'm young. yk indulge a little in my youth #cries in my studies are my priority . as it should be though. my work is very important to me #i'm not actively seeking for love but god if i find it somewhere n by chance it happens to be reciprocated. that would be lovely #that said i would like a lover that is a writer #n so we'd also fall in love deeply with each other's words. the other worlds in our heads #someone who'd love the little things. every shift in our voices. the way our eyes speak. #the moments in between the silences. each unfiltered thought and word. everything unsaid but known #someone who also loves life and themselves #wah i have to go now but i'm thinking of the things i've written n read #i want to experience them in my own way. someday #sob i wna get better at the piano n write songs #i wna write letters i wna hug you when you're crying i wna kiss you goodnight #10 years in the future maybe 🫠

[inkykeiji]

Clari I hope you're having a wonderful day!!! This is kinda a rambly message, so please don't feel like you need to respond to it if you don't want to!!

The medication I take gives me really vivid dreams and I had a dream about Dabi/Touya last night!  I think outwardly he went by Dabi, then Touya was for private use?

So me and him were dating, I don't remember us having any familial relation, but he definitely had the attributes of how you write Touya-Nii!

So in the dream, I can't remember what led up to it, but Dabi was hospitalised and I was there with him.

The doctor came in and told Dabi that he's going to have to take some time out to recover and lay off the drug use, he suggested activities or lifestyle changes, yknow that kinda stuff.

Dabi comes out saying he wants a change of scenery and wants to move to America (I'm from the UK) and live in the middle of nowhere on like a ranch or something to recover and maybe kick the drug habit (I think he just said that to keep me and the doc happy tbh).

Firstly living in the middle of nowhere is not an idea I vibe with, I'm quite happy having buildings and people around me.

Secondly, I was like, what about my family? What about your family? (I'm going to assume that his family was living wherever I was, and I don't think I could live without seeing Natsuo 😩)

So I remember not outright saying no but being like "Oh really? That's a new one, let's take some time to think about it before we make any decisions" Like I would never say no to Touya, but he definitely knew that I wasn't vibing with those ideas. I remember shaking my head at the doctor as like a "please don't encourage this" or just plain "help me" 😂

However, the doctor ignored me and said it's all a great idea and we should do it as soon as possible and all that business, so we did it.

So for whatever reason, when moving to America, we brought our cars with us (even though we drive on the other side of the road)

While still in the process of moving into the house, in quite literally the middle of nowhere, Touya demands that once we're all moved in, that he keeps a hold of my car keys.

In the dream, for whatever reason at the start of our relationship and living together, Touya always had my car keys, I guess so if I wanted to go somewhere I had to ask him? But after a while together, he would let me have them, or there'd be like the designated hook or whatever where they would go, so basically I guess I had the freedom to come and go as I wished?

So I was really confused because why did he want my keys? Where was I going to go in the middle of nowhere in a new country?

He never explained why he wanted them, but while we were still moving, I started sleeping with my car keys under my pillow. I don't know what it was meant to achieve, but it made me feel better 😂

I never finished the dream because I woke up, but like I said, his whole demeanor in my dream definitely reminded me of your Touya -Nii! Like I don't know if Touya-Nii would ever go to such extreme lengths of trying to isolate the reader, but the possessive behaviour definitely matched. Also, it might just be me, but he doesn't seem the type to seek medical attention when he needs it, nor try and kick his bad habit, so I don't know, I just thought it was a funny dream 😂

ANON BABIE i finally got a chance to sit down and read this thoroughly hehehe gosh i love vivid dream/dreams in general so much tbh i find them so intruiging!!!

okay first of all thank you for sharing this with me hehehe it’s magnificent omfg

the living on a ranch idea had me fucking SNORTING ahahahaha oh my god i love that so much

please don’t encourage this LMFAOOOOOOO AHAHA AWWWW also the i would never say no to touya is such a fuckin MOOD ugh this man i swear to god but anyway @ the doctor what a fuckin jackass LMAO but wait wait i love how you did it because the doctor said so/agreed!!! this is so funny anon i have endless giggles rn hehehe

OH SO HE’S LOWKEY A YANDERE HUH he totally took ur keys n wouldn’t give ‘em back until you earned his trust

tbh anon i could DEFINITELY see touya doing this if he thought it was best/necessary. like one million percent, it is SUCH touya-nii behaviour hahahah aaah this gave me such a good laugh anon bb thank you so much for sharing!!! <33333 sorry it took me a lil bit to get to!! i wanted to sit down to read through it fully and give it the attention it deserved!!!

#i had ONE touya-nii dream #but i had been adopted by the todorokis #it was very interesting lmao touya tried to fuck me in the bathroom #i say tried as if he didn’t succeed LMAO #and then i had that one dream about the twins sigh :( #i still think about that like;;;;; weekly lmao #BUT WAAAAAAH ANON THIS WAS TRULY INCREDIBLE HAHAHAHA THANK YOU FOR SHARING!!!!! #seriously this put such a massive smile on my face <33 #i hope you’re doing well bb!!! have a lovely day and please stay safe n hydrated!! #sending much love n health your way!! <33333 #inky.bb #clari gets mail