#i'm feeling less Pain-stricken now - i think my biggest problem is the not sleeping rn

[corvigae]

if anyone's curious how i'm going, due to a triple punch of insomnia, period, and chronic illness i've been awake for over 28 hours, have been too sick and/or in pain to leave bed since around 1 am, and feel like i'm living a waking nightmare ✌️

#and NONE of the cats are cuddling me which is honestly the biggest insult to injury #i'm feeling less Pain-stricken now - i think my biggest problem is the not sleeping rn #bc my eyes are fucking burning and i'm physically exhausted #and i know from experience that my 27 year old body feels like it's shutting down if i get less than 5 hours of sleep #but the problem is that despite all the Troubles and Exhaustion i'm still mentally Wide Awake #and i ALSO know from experience that just laying there waiting for sleep doesn't Do Anything for me #except actually make any sleep i do manage to get extremely fitful and actually make me feel Worse #personal grumblings #ironically today is SUPPOSED to be my day off work. but i agreed yesterday to come in today to help catch up on things #then i had to go 'actually nvm i'm Actually Fucking Dying rn'