#i'm doing ibuprofen again. hello darkness my old friend. and bengay cream and an improvised splint

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can't believe i have to shell out more money for consultations and treatment of a THIRD urgent and ongoing medical problem this month

#my pinky finger on my drawing hand is extremely fucked out of the blue #all the joints hurt almost as if there's bruised blood pooled inside them?? #both when static and also especially when folding the finger #now i do curl my pinky and ring fingers under when drawing but i didn't even draw for that lomg this week compared to others when i was fin #fine* #i'm doing ibuprofen again. hello darkness my old friend. and bengay cream and an improvised splint #tomorrow my mom is gona try to contact her friend's daughter who's a physiotherapist who has seen my dad on similar emergencies #it just. ughhhh. i want to reopen commissions! for once i Love what i'm doing and i have people on a waitlist to get art by me! #and my income entirely depends on my aptitude to draw #i genuinely don't understand what went wrong #i'm so proud of how much i was able to earn solely off of my art this month but it's all gone to medical stuff and that HURTS man #my foot injury treatment (ongoing). my attempt at a diagnosis of potential thyroid or kidney issues (ongoing) #now this!!! i'm just grateful my wisdom tooth read the room and hit pause for now #ką sako lapė