#i'm a product of life experiences directly related to it and that has been engraved onto my being and my feelings.

[haarute]

yeah that's about right

#i have Thoughts about gender but every time i follow them i end up in ''man who cares this is dumb'' and stop. #that said as much as i wish i could say i don't care about it the reality is that neither i nor anyone born in society is exempt from it. #i'm a product of life experiences directly related to it and that has been engraved onto my being and my feelings. #so my aversion and rejection are a direct result. which is ironic to say the least. #the cisgender numbers are high because i mostly live my life without issues on the gender related front because i mostly don't mind. #the transgender numbers are high because i do wish my body was different and given the opportunity i would change it. #but it's more. Cosmetic i suppose. #i also do not want to be associated with what This Is Currently so that also counts. get me out here and whatever anyone places onto me. #but the thing is i am not interested in playing any game really. #i just want to be myself in peace. and that is not bound to any particular group or mentality or performance. i'm just me. #so anyway. as i was saying #man who cares this is dumb.