#i'll fix stuff w the fc when i can n then

[noxtivagus]

yeah i'm rlly gna play a lot of ffxiv when i can again >:3

#🌙.rambles #one day i really hope i'll finally have a grp of 8 friends like yk around my age n all so #we can raid together at our own pace 🥺🫶🏼 #i'll fix stuff w the fc when i can n then #i rlly. look forward to the alliance raids #'dedicated to moonlight' from what i've heard of it i think it'll become one of my favorite songs #lyrics. context. menphina deity of the moon n love <3 uwahh she's so me the song's gna resonate w me a lot for sure #i don't know anything about the song itself tho w its melody n all #from what i. hmmm. i took some small glances at the lyrics bcs my curiosity was killing me n #it has a lot of themes i love !!!! hehe i'm really excited #n then msq means more zero content. months ago she. yeah srs became one of my favs immediately #n then fr she was made w a genderless concept 🥹🫶🏼 i love love love love zero so much #HFKSHFKSK THE WAY SHE TIPS HER HAT..... WAHH N THEN #no wait if i'll ramble abt this more i'm gna get carried away bcs i really Really like zero. #bro the armor n the scythe n her love for apples n then #zero my beloved 🥹 <3 #i love pandaemonium. esp the ost 'scream' it's so fucking good #but. eden. is very special to me. ff8 references n ryne n gaia #pls ryne n gaia w the rinoa n squall parallels. arguably the Most romantic couple in the final fantasy series. #speaking of rinoa n squall i want to play ffviii so badly i think it'll be my fav? other than ffxiv. but hmm w the themes i think it #resonates w me more at least. like w the time n destiny stuff n rinoa's literally my type #rinoa w the wings rinoa w the pet rinoa w the flowers rinoa w blue >< #music too there's: waltz for the moon / julia / don't be afraid / the extreme / blue fields / ami / tears of the moon / love grows / n more #NO WAIT BACK TO RYNE N GAIA 😭 gaia's basically destined ig w yk that guy who's other name is the same as one of my other names too >.> #but yk. ryne n gaia they. actually nah no spoilers but i love them so much they're so gay #ah. eden tier w some of my fav osts too. return to oblivion & promises to keep #treasured memory too !!!! & not to mention yk eden's promise was my introduction to savage. endgame #nier raids were like the step before raiding so. that also has an extra personal meaning factor to me hehe #wait it's 5 n i haven't started anything yet still on the infographic . #i can't help but be stressed by a lot of things but these little moments where i can just write n think to myself mean so much to me

[noxtivagus]

my skill is making nonsense out of nothing fr 👍

#🌙.rambles #reading some old rambles from years back is quite endearing actually #n i. rlly would love to tell me younger self how i love how she thought through those stuff abt my wol well #i wonder though what's the extent of which i cld write or imagine smth i've never experienced before #n likely at times perhaps i force it in a way in my head while knowing it is entirely like. yk fiction just so i can 'feel' it for the sake #of yeah just. expanding my knowledge n understanding of stuff #i think i definitely did that before in late 2021 w that one old ffxiv friend #i mean ofc there's some pain that comes w it but it's all for the sake of learning 🥺 #actually i'm not talking abt anything rn i just want to ramble to myself abt random bs before i sleep #tbf i did have nice ideas when i'd use random stuff or create fragmented realities or idk what it is in my head #but i cld always yk differentiate what's actually real or not #being sleep-deprived sucks though i do not think right #i shld sleep. i'm gna get less than 3 hours of sleep like this 😭😭 #just have to work on the speech tmrrw n do quite a lot of research bcs of the topic i chose sob #maybe i cld've done something easier n i cld always change it but No i find this interesting n i will pull through #mostly just that n i cld play some ffxiv n fix the fc server c: n farm more gbf bcs i did not play much today #I GOT EUSTACE SUMMER THOUGH !!!! this anniv i have barely gotten anything new but 🥺 eustace is cool. n i got lucifer hehe from 100 <3 #as long as i don't lose sight of my passions n like. yeah the love i have for sm things in my life n then hope n always striving to improve #yk i'll continue to thrive. succeed 🫶🏼🫶🏼 #i'm not sleepy rn i feel motivated but no i shld rlly goddamn sleep #i came across some notes too of how i wrote my wol like exactly two years ago n.. funny how it still hits now :^) #but yk reading that reminded me of how much time has passed but like. more in a 'ive managed to accomplish so much more since then' way #i'm proud of myself. & i'll continue to do what i can so i can continue to be proud of who i am at heart #n like fuck social anxiety but i'll find a way to yk get through it all anyways. ofc. yeah #i will fix my account next week for sure.