#i would be so good at drawing if *unknown eye-brain thing that causes migraines* hadn't nerfed me

[celepeace]

I'm in that weird middle ground where I'm good enough at drawing that it wows people who aren't artists and don't know any artists but not good enough that I could even really consider it a talent

#i would be so good at drawing if *unknown eye-brain thing that causes migraines* hadn't nerfed me #by making it impossible to draw for more than 15 minutes at a time without getting debilitating migraines #turns out you cannot really improve at something if your body only allows you to do it for MAYBE 15 minute increments weekly #i'm good enough that i can get like. the essence of an animal or plant or object on paper to communicate it well #and i can even draw human anatomy fairly well. like bodily proportions and positions and hands do not trouble me #i can't draw faces at all though like it all falls apart when i try to draw a human face. cannot do it #i'm not faceblind but there is a blank spot in my mind where faces should exist for the purpose of recreating them #like when i try to somehow recreate a human face artistically it feels like my brain is groping around in a dark room #i think it's something similar to prosopagnosia tho cause when i try to conjure an image in my mind of a face #i usually struggle a lot to even recall what my loved ones' faces look like #but i can recognize faces just fine. i can always recognize people perfectly