#i wonder if it'd be too far to say she's even doubting scenes with astral express members

[lunaetis]

eden doesn't trust anyone in penacony. not a single person. i wanted to say that she trusted firefly, but even her i feel like it's something more of a tug than trust. very much like what the dreamscape is supposed to represent. meeting firefly was like a fever dream. i think eden was drawn to her because it was the first time she's treated like a normal person. everywhere she had gone to, everyone is aware of the stellaron to a degree. they had known or heard of her one way or the other and have her associated with the stellaron or aeons in some way, shape, or form. meeting firefly was like a glimpse into what it's like to be normal ( as in meeting someone and bonding naturally / normally ), that's why eden quickly grew attached to her to the point that witnessing her death caused her to disassociate for a moment ( more on this in a different post. )

all in all, no one she had met gave her a reason to trust them. all of them have their own roles to play, their own agenda to accomplish, and eden felt like she's being used one way or the other despite being offered the truth. it's a similar feeling to what happened in xianzhou luofu where kafka and the stellaron hunters orchestrated everything according to the future they saw. in penacony, eden felt like everyone already knows what part they're going to play and the nameless ( including her ) being there is yet another puzzle piece for the story / destiny / truth to play out, and she doesn't like that feeling. even when she felt familiarity or connection with firefly, at the end of the day, eden still feels rather isolated from the planet itself and its people. she doesn't trust anyone's words, to the point that she's even doubting her own memory and experience at times. there is no guarantee if what she's seeing or remembering is even real, after all.

#.headcanon: eden | trailblazer #[ existential crisis is strong with her exposure to penacony #if she's quite cautious to trust ppl before #then this whole experience is giving her major trust issues and she knows she CANNOT trust anyone #i wonder if it'd be too far to say she's even doubting scenes with astral express members #bc rn what she had seen or heard are too mixed up that she has no true way to discern dreams from reality ]