#i stuck my hands into the guts of philippi and rearranged it all and i'll do it again with actium

[mjvnivsbrvtvs]

the whole actium+antony segment really is just one long cosmic lesson in abandonment, huh

#i stuck my hands into the guts of philippi and rearranged it all and i'll do it again with actium #its that or i talk about the poliziano-machiavelli-vettori thought i've been thinking about for four months now or i take a vow of silence #or whatever it was machiavelli said #i dont know how to talk about anything else so i must talk about politics or take a vow of silence. something like that #except instead of politics is me with...whatever......this is. this tangled mess of yarn that is my thoughts #anyway. jesus CHRIST. its failure and then abandonment and then failure and then abandonment and then losing the last bit of hope you #didn't know you had. actium is MISERABLE #and while i Knew this from an 'oh time to learn abt history' standpoint it's so SAD from the new standpoint of 'symbolic narrative dialogue' #(MSDHGH SORRY LORENZO i just realized i failed to connect him to poliziano despite the fact that he is Essential to this thought #i simply do not care about him)