#i just finished ''lockdown'' and i've been crying crystalline anime tears for two hours now so

[psalmsofpsychosis]

Jesus christ the feeling of homesickness that hits after finishing a multichapter fic that rewires your whole internal neural network and gives you an involuntary heart transplanet with the main character's heart. This shit will never get easier and i wouldn't have it any other way

#i think what makes it even more devastating is that the author has their comments closed #so i have no way of telling them how much their work means to me and all the little things and big things that i loved #and the way they're an inseparable part of my history now and how i'm leaving a part of my heart with this fucking fic and and #ao3 user Neyiea if you hear me #for the love of gods– #i know there are countless reasons for one to want to close their ao3 comments #but i need you to know that you write in ways that is unparalleled; irreplaceable; quite frankly unreplicatable; #and with you the Gotham fandom was elevatad to a degree of unimaginable complexity and quality of craftsmanship #that is very hard to recreate in any other fandom and with any other writing voice #i'm definitely not the same person i was as the one before i started on your fics. holy fucking shit #i wouldn't dare pick fics but if i had to— well #i just finished ''lockdown'' and i've been crying crystalline anime tears for two hours now so