#i gotta stop my ussy up w my blog honestly. it ain't presenting me so well

[krockat]

i've been wanting to commission someone to make a pfp for here, that uses the hat in my current one

cause rn it's fkn boring and beige and not very visually intrestin - and u can't even read the fkn text that makes it worth! (it's a pic of a yellow beige cap (the hat) w the text "ask me about my lobotomy" on it)

idea's to like make it pretty and faggy and me, and Also makes the text any at all readable lol.

but commissioning is hard! you gotta have like a fkn good proposal and have references, and know what you want and able to word that shit - and most often i just struggle w that.

but this time i have a concept (more than what i wrote) but like,,, i don't wanna be roughin it on an artist. i want to be a GOOD commissioner and until i got d girl't balls to do that i am gonna pass.

#i gotta stop my ussy up w my blog honestly. it ain't presenting me so well #like my url also like - i follow so many w excellent urls that it gets more blatant day by day that my urls ain't doing me right. #but its a funny and queer-looking little word! krockat #it's a swedish word. n so i bet a lot of the charm w it is lost on most #it means crashed. basically #but its also just so fun in d mouth nd even mind mouth to say. it also has strong connections w me to queer nd punky nd theatrical things #like inspos me of one of my og fave chaotic n queer coded n dramatic villains - olyckan. #he's from an old swedish kids tv show from like the 70s called trazan och banarne - #which starred two hairy middle aged men wearing animal print - who lived in a jungle tree-house together - #and who made super sweet n funny surrealistic jazzy music together. #and olyckan (meaning 'the accident') was a creepy (💜) human(?)ification of accidents who sang his great villain song about loving accidents #and that if you didn't watch out for him - some STUFF would happen!!! and then he would giggle creepily in his great theatre voice #anyway. so they had an impact. right. #also krockat just invokes things about crashing+ failing and physical and etc pain. so vibes w my multi-disabled self. #it just yea!! but yea it's uhhhhhhhhhh #urgh idk. I guess if it got such strong meaning to me - it dodnt gotta have meaning to anyone else #krockat #the meaning behind krockat #krockat krockar