#i definitely have some serious depression lol. i'm not saying T would fix me buuuuuuuuuuuuuut...

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Those days where you open your drawing program and just want to have a fucking meltdown

#i'm calling it. i have lost my ability to draw. and write apparently. #maybe i do need to angrily clean my bathroom because i feel like i'm on fire rn. like i'm just boiling inside. #it's still funny though because i get gender euphoria when my depression manifests as anger like this. #sig why don't you listen to more system of a down and stare blankly at the ceiling for two hours. i'm sure that would fix you. #i shouldn't have an online presence when i feel this depressed lol but it's tumblr #the day after a night out drinking is always dark. no bby boy don't cut yourself ahaha. seriously i won't but i can't just sit here #i should clean. #i think i know what burnout feels like now but i still keep pushing myself anyway. so i can't be burnt out then huh. #i definitely have some serious depression lol. i'm not saying T would fix me buuuuuuuuuuuuuut...