#i am a hooligan!! a ne'er do well!!

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until now i've never even considered xiancheng as a ship?? like, i feel as though wwx's love for jc is an integral part of his character, and i do wish they'd had a better resolution in both mdzs & cql (unless something happened in the extras?? never got a chance to read them 😅) and tbh i am quite fond of both of their characters, but it never occurred to me to ship them. even with the golden core transfer. bc i would absolutely dig out my solidified soulstuff and give it to my little sister if she needed it. it's not even a question, i wouldn't give it a second thought. as an act of brotherly love the golden core transfer makes perfect sense to me. my sister, like jc, has the sort of personality where if she's got no ''''natural talent'''' she thinks she's not good enough, so she gives up. i've......never really been like that?? not being good at things has never actually STOPPED me from doing things. maybe i wouldn't perform for strangers, but i wouldn't stop. so i wouldn't feel the loss of it as much--or if i did, at least i could handle it better. i'd still be all right. i'd find a way. i always do.

however. the inherent romanticism of it. as a romance trope it is. yes yes very good. i like it. i like that. a lot. and ofc the old trope of shixiong/shidi (woh/shl my beloved!!) is also very welcome to me. perhaps if xiancheng had been endgame, maybe i would have liked mdzs/cql better?? idk, i'm not even sure why i don't like it as much as i'd hoped i would... 😩

#it's not bc i don't like lwj!! he's a good character himself #and seems like a nice fellow besides!! #it's just... i really don't like the lan sect tbh #the cloud recesses is just....awful. #all those rules....it's kind of nauseating to me #it's just so restrictive #and when i think of a free spirit like wwx spending all his time there #being stifled #i just...! ugh. no. do not want. i know he's not really imprisoned there or anything #but even if he IS allowed to be himself.....nobody else is. THEY still have to follow all the rules. THEY are still stifled. and being urse #urself around someone who can't is just so awkward #i used to know someone like that as a kid #i used to feel so guilty #that i could just be and she couldn't. bc she was chained by her strict parents #even when they weren't around. idk maybe my parents let me run too wild?? i might be the problem!! i have a real distaste for authority! i #i am a hooligan!! a ne'er do well!! #none of the cloud recesses stuff is actually lwj's fault anyway #i think i just resent the fact that it seems like he LIKES it. and that just??? does not compute??? #i have a harder time identifying with him than with some of the other characters #i really don't dislike him!! or lxc for that matter!! #i just think the cloud recesses is fecking lame #lotus pier is so much cooler #birb says #fandom meta #xiancheng #mdzs/cql i WANT TO LOVE U #but i just.....can't?? ;A; #i'm sorry ;A; #ok ok i REALLLLYYY need to get back to drawing #i'm colouring it now it's nearly done

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So, in my attempt to soothe my heartache after the most recent ep of “Harley Quinn,” I went a-gathering in FelisFire. If you don’t know it, it’s a site where you breed winged cats. (And if you go and sign up, tell ‘em Socks #5250 sent ya! and then come by my lab and say hello to me!)

@tybunnythehellmoose and I, being the deranged fans we are, each made a winged cat to breed together: I made Aziraphale and they made Crowley. Initially, you can only make Males and Females, so we made Crowley the female since he presents as female twice in the show. But then another friend ( @thesoulsikeep) found out that there’s a way to make them Omnis - that is, they’re actively both male AND female. Well, we can’t change Crowley while he’s preggers, but I went ahead and changed Aziraphale from male to omni.

Now, when you gather with an adult female or omni cat, you can sometimes get surprise impregnated by a wild male. I’d forgotten Aziraphale was an omni now, went gathering with him, and... well. GUESS WHAT HAPPENED.  v__v 

So this little scene came to my mind: imagine Aziraphale and Crowley playing FF. They each made a cat that represented them, and one day Crowley comes storming into the bookshop when there are actually customers in.

"What is this?" he asked, holding out his phone so the angel could see it. "How did you get Pregnant?!" 

"I'm NOT, and I'll thank you to keep your voice down," as he glanced nervously at the people around who were glancing at him briefly in a 'wtf' manner. 

"You are, look!"

"Well, it was an accident." 

"An accident." 

"I was out gathering, and... and this ruffian, this absolute hooligan accosted me and apparently left me in that condition." 

Crowley stared at him. "Are You Saying You Got Raped By A Digital Cat?" 

Everyone in the bookshop turned to look at them. 

"No, I Did Not, Thank You," he declared loudly, red-faced, just before announcing it was closing time and hustling everyone out of the shop.

"You didn't," Crowley repeated flatly once everyone was gone. "You're saying it was consensual?"

“No!" as he locked the door and flipped the sign. He turned back around. "I'm saying that the cat is not me and I am not the cat! It's a... it's a game!" 

"It's the representation of you in the game!" 

"I was given to understand that we were scientists studying the flora and fauna of another planet, and..." 

"...then why is it all white and gold and has your name then?" 

"Well." He huffed. "It doesn't matter! It's not really me! I am not pregnant, I haven't been raped, nor have I been with someone else. And if I were, it wouldn't be some... some ne'er-do-well delinquent that I'd take up with! You know me better than that, Crowley! I love you!" 

Crowley grinned and put down his phone. "I know that, I just wanted to hear you say it." 

"Oh, honestly. All this fuss, just for that?"

"Well, and it got the customers out so we can snog a bit," Crowley added.

"I suppose there is that benefit."

#Ineffable Husbands #silliness #blatant ad for FelisFire while I'm at it #cw: rape mention #now if you'll excuse me I need some more soothing