#i WON last game jam and he didn't even say anything or comment on my game

[broodygaming]

People in the discord server I'm in for game jam stuff are talking about different designs and things people do. And one person mentions they don't like playing suggestive games. Two people in the game jams make often... Idk how to put it. Big boob lady games. It's not Terrible terrible? But it does make me eye roll and make me be more careful with my words so I'm being polite and not like, talking down to them too much.

So shoutout to that other girl who was just like "nah I don't play those they make me uncomfortable" haha, you rock.

Also it made me chortle a bit cuz I realized that now three of my main characters in a row wear baggy sweaters and my first character before that was a small child.

Idk, I don't get the "bobba" thing. they'll all like, titter and laugh about it. Ohh, look at her walking cycle her pixel "bobbas" move, ohhh. It's weird. Can boobs just be boobs please. It's just. It's. ugh.

#is it just sexism? it might just be sexism #idk how to tag these things... maybe i should actually spend time in the tags I'm using lolol #it's so weird the runner of the game jam I'm doing now !!! ignores me!! in so many ways??? #it's SO weird it's one of those really subtle things #and im positive it started when I switched my pronouns on the server to be she/her #cuz EVERYONE assumes you're a guy unless you say otherwise #but like lots of people post progress posts and he comments on ALL of them asking them questions and giving his thoughts #and he has never not once done that to me #or asked what I'm working on next or anything about my projects #i WON last game jam and he didn't even say anything or comment on my game #it's SO weird #should I just stop doing these? maybe but that feels like giving up and ... #like the dude running them not liking me cuz im a girl has 0 bearing on my experience in the jams except I miss out on his input #and who cares about his input lol #but it IS weird and sometimes I obsess over it too much cuz I end up gaslighting myself and being like #it's not that deep #but it is it is that deep it's definitely happening it's not in my head