#having an emotionally drained (?? from what?) fail day today where i can't seem to get anything done and feel gross and useless

[tambourineophelia]

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#having an emotionally drained (?? from what?) fail day today where i can't seem to get anything done and feel gross and useless #and because i don't want to lie to the boy I'm seeing (i need a better name for him oh god) i told him i didn't go to uni again..... #which feels too fucking vulnerable to admit to my failures like that but again i don't want to lie and he asks a lot.... #anyways he offered we could meet up later and now i'm unsure if i am ready to confront him even more with my bullshit #at the same time it would surely be nice??? but then do i deserve nice things???????? after not doing what i was supposed to do???? #i just need to rant sorry i don't think i am even asking a question here