#get rid of the cockroaches apparently probably that the flat's owner has NOT warned me about and that i saw no signs of !!

[sleepychaika]

my sanity is quite literally only holding onto escapism shit and nothing else !!! as of right now

i love you fandom spaces i love you otps i love you beloved characters i love you reading i love you watching i love you comfort music that i put on loop for DAYS on end. i love turning to all of you when life comes back to bite me in the ass and/or throw a gazillion of lemons at me

#like. yes i'm in a shitty new apartment. yes i'm out of fucking money for the time being. yes it needs some repairs and yes i need to #get rid of the cockroaches apparently probably that the flat's owner has NOT warned me about and that i saw no signs of !! #all these things prompt out of me is nervous laughter and the urge to fucking give up but my GOD do i regain the will to live when i can #like curl up and watch my favorite youtuber by the end of the day when i've done all the chores i could do for the day #or scroll through a tumblr blog dedicated to my beloved otp or whatever #yes i'm weak but i'm glad there's just such an easy? way to you know. get out of this pit of absolute despair which i fall into in #stressful situations such as these. feeling hopeless? => indulge in your hyperfixation or w/e => BOOM you woke up mildly refreshed #and kind of ready to tackle all the shit u have to deal with At least!!as opposed to 'just let me fall unconscious for a month or two or 5' #.txt