#funny thing i realized how empty my brain is and then while listening to aquakin's nyan cat version i almost broke down bc i started thinkin

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#:))))))))))))) #time to use the Internet™ to vent #im hhhh tired. nothing bad has even happened and yet here we are again!! jus sucks that i dont even realize when it's starting bc! my head! #is so empty all the time! but i made it that way! cuz i dont want to show emotions to any of my family anymore at least not real emotions #n now im suffering bc idk what going on inside of my head! it's literally just. blank. any thoughts i have will be abt smth insignificant or #idk anime? but only surface lvl. at this point ive scared myself into thinking about my emotions and struggles bc ik I'd just feel trapped #which would make me feel worse so ig this is the most ideal option atm. but it sucks cuz i feel stupid. i cant consume any type of media w/o #my brain melting or me being incredibly annoyed for no reason? idk it's like any light annoyance is amplified which makes me feel awful and #so i just stay away from friends which sucks? bc when i come back i feel awkward or smth but also i dont wanna be an annoyance although #they prolly wont think that? but then i feel like a terrible friend bc sometimes i cant be there for them bc i dont feel like it idk #funny thing i realized how empty my brain is and then while listening to aquakin's nyan cat version i almost broke down bc i started thinkin #and so i just stopped it an died on the inside #anyway that's another reason why im not active here anymore im just feeling disconnected to evrything i like #everything is perfectly fine :). #alex.txt