#fucked up doesn't help me at all with feeling less of an unlovable piece of garbage every day of my life ):

[ginkovskij]

feeling miserable again!!

#it's very interesting how one single thought will grow into 'my life is pointless and being alive is only painful amd scary' episode #like thinking about therapy and how we are not moving a single step in the direction of finding a solution #we always talk about the causes and i guess that's important too but not going to lie knowing that i feel unlovable because my childhood was #fucked up doesn't help me at all with feeling less of an unlovable piece of garbage every day of my life ): #notes of a countryside dandy