#friend from 6th std the only person who's privy to everything her family trauma her college friends her bf her sex life

[i-am-emo-shit]

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#i feel like im the side character bestfriend in a poorly written book whose only role is for the plot furtherment #like yk i only exist so that the protagonist can talk ahout her love interest with me and come to realisations on her own and then go live #her happily ever after with her bf #is life all about romantic relationships???? is this how it's going to be forever??? #i miss when we would spend hours talking about the new season of mismatched or show each other songs #now all we do is talk about her bf and after that she falls asleep #im so fuckinh sick of them my head hurts when i listen to her talk about him #and this is the way it always ends i start to hate them little by little everyday and then one day ill be like kindly fuck off i don't love #you anymore #ive already lost two childhood besties cause of this and now i think im gonna lose her too and then i will have no one to lose #she would be horrified if she knew that i think she doesn't care about me as a person cause in her head im so important to her her bestest #friend from 6th std the only person who's privy to everything her family trauma her college friends her bf her sex life #why don't i see it then why don't i feel it fuck yaar #i never ever feel it what's wrong with me are those people wrong or am i wrong??????? #and ex gf said she'll never get back together with me bc i can handle the highs of thr rship well but not the lows i run away #and i hate vulnerability and showing weakness and sabotage all my relationships and push everyone away #ugh im so tired of being myself