#en i feel worse for being sad about this/wanting a reply bc i know they're probably busy and i don't want them to prioritize me or feel lik

[dakethumoses]

someday soon i will write a post abt the ... idk how to phrase it, which is why i haven't written it. handholding? of people just disappearing and not replying and being gone for months. and i get it, i've done it too while having a Bad Time but there's this weird self-congratulatory "i'm not a caller. or texter. or facetimer. i think of you sometimes and if you're not psychic that's on you" "i have no relationship decay so even if i dont talk to you for months i still love you" avoidant behavior posts and it just. idk.

#whoops didnt mean to leave you #on read for months #as the one who tries to be really understanding of people Having Things Going On. hh #it really sucks the number of friends who have disappeared for weeks/months and then came back and was like . and it also makes me feel like #do love them. but it also means i never feel like i can reach out or rely on them or tell them things about how im doing on an emotional le #el. like i'm always trying to find a reason for them to come back. idk. ghosting culture makes me sad. this makes me sad. i'm lonely. and t #en i feel worse for being sad about this/wanting a reply bc i know they're probably busy and i don't want them to prioritize me or feel lik #i want them to prioritize me over the important things. it just makes me sad. whatever i am extremely lonely and looping debt by eliza mcla #i'll probably delete this later #.txt